Jun 02, 2010 - 11:13 am
My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer at 34. She battled it for 10 years 2 weeks and 4 days. When she passed I was married married 6 months prior and was 5 months pregnant. I am not sure if I had time to grieve because of all that. I am the only child, and through all of this my dad met a women just a few months after my mom passed and moved to a different state, and I don't get to talk or see him much.
I am seeing a counciler now, because I am so fearful of the c-word. My grandpa passed away from lung cancer along with 3 other great aunts and uncles. And now my healthy grandma was just diagnosed a month ago with colon cancer, but is now surgery cured, and now has a scare with the uterus and has to get a biopsy.
I have always been very fearful of cancer for myself and my family and is really bad now, where it's to the point where it interferes with my life (ie. I am afraid of going out in the sun becuase of skin cancer and am afraid of the sunblocks because the chemicals in them that are linked to cancer) I am so sick of this and pray I can get over this.
I just want me and my husband and 17 month old daughter to be happy and I don't want to get cancer.