Lyle

Lylesmyprince
Lylesmyprince Member Posts: 130
edited March 2014 in Esophageal Cancer #1
Hi my friends,

I thought I would just let you all know what is going on with my Prince. He's home...he is keeping his peg-tube feedings down, however, they are still at a lower amount. He is weak and seems to be living mainly in a dream world. I have chosen to reduce his pain medications so that I can see if "Lyle" is anywhere in there. His love for me certainly is...and that is nothing more than a gift from the Lord. When I say, "I love you, Baby!" He responds in the same way he always does, "I love you, too, Honey!" Precious!! When I lean on him...he gently caresses the sides of my face. We made a promise to keep each other...so when I ask him if he is still going to keep me...he gives me an excited, "Yes!" The family continues to come by and see him...one smile since we came home is when he saw our youngest grandson. He wanted the one year old to sit on his lap and he loved it.

This time is difficult. Not knowing if Lyle will rejoin us or if he will be seeing the face of Jesus soon! During a coherant moment I asked Lyle if he has had a talk with God about this time in his life. He said that he had and has just decided to leave it in God's hands. That's my guy!! Faithful in his walk with the Lord even in the difficult times! What a Godly leader he is in our household.

My heart is broken...I think I am missing and greaving him already. During this time...he is just somewhere else. I still have hopes of a rally in his strength and health but am accepting of what our Master's plan is for us.

Susie

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  • Donna70
    Donna70 Member Posts: 852 Member
    what a prince for sure
    Susie,
    Your love for Lyle is just shining from your words. Even in the hard place you are now, you both love and care for each other. My thoughts and prayers are with you and keep hoping that Lyle will get some strength back to enjoy more days with you and your family. Lyle is my kind of Christian. I always put myself or whoever needs it in Gods hands, especially the real difficult times, the only way to stay calm and at peace. Prayers always,
    Donna70
  • mikesmom01
    mikesmom01 Member Posts: 27
    sincere prayers
    Susie~

    I read your post and could not help but smile, altho I did tear up the smile felt really warm in my heart and in your spirit. You DO have a true gift in Lyle, however, what a real, true gift and inspiration YOU are. I can only hope to be as brave and gentle as you. I will have to go back and read some of your previous posts but I know already how similar our lives are if we meet on here. I am not anywhere close to where you are with the cards we have been given, but I aspire to be. I know the Lord, and I trust him, but I am so afraid of what all lies ahead and wonder how I will ever get thru it all with any sanity left at all.

    Please know that you and your precious Lyle will be in all my prayers from now on. I know God has us all in his ever loving hands.

    Martha
  • Tina Blondek
    Tina Blondek Member Posts: 1,500 Member
    God is Blessing Both of You
    Hi Susie and Lyle,
    Thanks for the update. I can relate to Lyle being in his "own medicated world". My dad was the same way. His eyes open, looking at you, but his mind way far off somewhere else. I agree with cutting back on the pain meds. They can do a real number on you! Scary a lot of the time. Enjoy these tender moments with Lyle. Live each day for what it is. It is in Gods hands now, and you will all know when Lyle's time has come. Hugs to both of you. I will be thinking of you daily. Come back when you can.
    Tina
  • paul61
    paul61 Member Posts: 1,391 Member
    Our prayers are with you
    Susie,

    I know this must be a difficult time for you as you await God's will in Lyle's recovery. It is wonderful that your love for each other and trust in God is their to support you through these tying times. I am glad that Lyle is at home among the people who love him.

    Our prayers are with you and Lyle on a daily basis.

    Best Regards,

    Paul Adams
    AKA: "paul61"
    McCormick, South Carolina
  • mumphy
    mumphy Member Posts: 440
    paul61 said:

    Our prayers are with you
    Susie,

    I know this must be a difficult time for you as you await God's will in Lyle's recovery. It is wonderful that your love for each other and trust in God is their to support you through these tying times. I am glad that Lyle is at home among the people who love him.

    Our prayers are with you and Lyle on a daily basis.

    Best Regards,

    Paul Adams
    AKA: "paul61"
    McCormick, South Carolina

    Hi Susie
    I know I haven't been around much, My heart goes out to you I know exactly what your heart is going through. It is truely in God's hands.

    You are and your family are in my prayers.

    May God bless and Keep you Always,
    Kath
  • cjmac49
    cjmac49 Member Posts: 100
    God Bless you Susie
    God Bless you Susie.

    I wish the best for you both.

    Jim
  • oriontj
    oriontj Member Posts: 375
    Susie...that is so
    Susie...that is so heartbreaking. You are so strong and faithful. Lyle is such a good Christian...I will pray for God's will to be done whatever that might be and for you to be at peace.

    orion
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  • K_ann1015
    K_ann1015 Member Posts: 500
    Oh Susie & Lyle,
    your post

    Oh Susie & Lyle,
    your post makes me think of the SIster Teresa quote (I think it is from her) "God doesn't give me more than I can handle----I just wish he wouldn't trust me so much!"
    I am so moved by both of you. Cancer is never easy - but how we all attempt to handle it can effect all of those surrounding us (including the one with cancer) in lasting ways---You are living an example of how I "hope" to be if I am in your shoes. thanks for posting even when it is painful. It makes us all send extra prayers for both of you. I am confident that God is present in Lyle's room and there with you as well. I pray he can rest and gain is strength according to the Lord's will.
    God Bless you both,
    Kim
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  • Ellie_E
    Ellie_E Member Posts: 50
    Susie,
    You and Lyle are

    Susie,
    You and Lyle are truly an inspiration! Your love shines through like a beacon through the dark night. You both have shown us how to deal with this horror with dignity and love. May God hold you and Lyle and your family in the palm of his hand.

    Ellie