My mum was diagnosed with cancer last april - one month later so was I. The shock that we both had cancer at the same time was indescribable although she had secondary liver cancer (they never did find the primary) and I had breast cancer.
Then my mum died 3 months from her diagnosis and just as I was starting chemotherapy. I couldnt deal with her death at the time so put it to the back of my mind in a box. Now, my treatment has reduced and I find I am missing her - I want to ring her up and say 'look how well I have done mum' but she isnt there. She was my friend, my big sister and my mother and I have lost her. How do I deal with this? I feel like I don't know how to grieve.