Apr 24, 2010 - 2:00 am
My husband John passed away on April 6, 2010 from pancreatic cancer, he was sick for 7 weeks total and now he is gone, It started with what he thought was a stomach virus, felt bloated and didn't want to eat, which was not norma;l for him, he was a big guy who loved to eat, we went to our MD who thought he had a stomach bacteria infection pylori, he gave him antibiotics, and within the next two days he was getting worse, so I forced him to go to the gastro, who gave him an endoscopy and said you have an ulcer, but just to be sure lets take a sonigram, and when he returned with the results, I could see in his face that it was not good. He set up an appointment for the next morning for a cat scan, after the scan that afternoon we got a call from the doctor and he said come to my office pick up the scan, go to Sloane Kettering, or Presbyterian now, thaey will admit him right away. We were caught in a whirlwind that just never stopped until April 6th, He was admitted to Sloane, they took 4 liters of fluid from his gut that night, that was the bloating he felt, the next few days were horrible, then the blood clots got into his lungs and his blood pressure went all the way down, he was put in ICU, where they tried everything they could, so many different things, but they couldn't get his body to keep his pressure up on its own, then his kidneys started to act up. Finally they told him they couldn't do anything else for him, the cancer was in his pancreas, liver and his gut, how could this be, he was walking 3 miles a day a week berfore this started, he was eating, happy. and now he is gone, I don't know if I can live through this, we were married 43 years, I don't know how to live without him, my heart is broken, We were very close and always together, I am trying to keep my head above water, because I feel it is sink or swim and I know if I sink I will drown. I am so sad.