Apr 19, 2010 - 7:58 pm
I was just wondering if anyone out there is an athlete and fighting cancer too. I have been an athlete my whole life playing soccer, basketball, lacrosse, cross country and track. Now I run cross country and track in college, and was diagnosed with cancer the summer before my sophmore year. I have been lucky enough to continue to compete throughout this year, but one of my biggest fears is having to give it up. It's what keeps me going, and it's my stress reliever. I have malignant pleural mesothelioma, a very rare diagnosis for a 19 year old female. My brother has the same illness, but he is stage IV and not doing well at all. It scares me to know that we have the same diagnosis and he is suffering so badly but it makes me appreciate every moment I have. I can't help but to worry about what the future holds. I am going to school to be a nurse in hope to help out those that I can relate to, but I'm scared that I won't make it long enough to accomplish that goal.
Being an athlete, I have the mentality of never giving up and to fight till I drop, and especially being a long distance runner. But I never dreamed it would be this hard just to get through each day, or just to do the one thing I love to do the most, to compete. Luckily I have great coaches and wonderful teammates, but the reminder is still always there that at any moment I might have to give it all up because of this awful disease.