Apr 18, 2010 - 12:08 pm
I had cancer-NPC-treatment twenty years ago when I was only 44 years oid. When I came out of the hospital after the two one-week sessions of chemo and a month of radiation, I feel dizzy,head burning feeling like a melting candlewax,weak,tired, just about everything you can feel in your head not normal anymore,my eyes,ears,nose, and mouth, and i get very irritable even on small things,easily enraged by things contrary to my likes,ideas and beliefs, and very intolerant. After one or two months during a consultation with my oncologist, he told me that I am healed and a miracle has happened. I could not believe him! And I said, " Doc, are you telling me I am cured? How come I feel worse than when I came in to the hospital for treatment?" And he told me that that's what i will feel for the rest of my life and he even put it down on record which I still have until now.
I have survived and I am here now 64 years old, after twenty years still struggling how to survive from the side effects of the treatments. Every little activity is a struggle, like combing my hair,shaving,walking,bathing,even chewing food or eating. For no reason at all my head will suddenly get painful even whether I am resting,sleeping,lying down,or watching tv. Now I have completely lost my sense of hearing and my sight is slowly getting blurry.And I could not walk straight like a drunk. Is it worth it all?