Apr 05, 2010 - 2:25 am
It's 2am, I just returned home from burying my grandfather to cancer, diagnosed 6 weeks ago, so that I can take care of my beautiful baby who had her third chemo treatment on Friday. My sister-in-law works for ACS and told me there were discussion boards I might find useful. I am so happy to have found this board; I have been having trouble finding a positive outlet for me in dealing with this. Now that I've found you, I don't even know what to say!
My partner of almost 11 blissful years was diagnosed in December with large cell neuroendocrine carcinoma. She had a complete hysterectomy on December 25th and is, hopefully, halfway through with chemo. Sunday seems to be the day the symptoms start kicking in - it's so painful seeing her suffer, I can barely stand it. I try not to hover (a constant personal battle) but sometimes I don't even know that I am...
We are both very positive people, generally, but I'm scared, straight up. Scared of what comes next, the waiting, her pain and worry and fear and anxiety. I'm angry, too. Angry at cancer, other people's ignorant statements, having to freeze the 90th lasagna. But mostly I'm scared and I needed a place to say all that. Probably a lot more, too, but I think I hear her stirring...maybe she needs something. See how I hover?