Mar 28, 2010 - 1:34 pm
I was diagnosed in late 2006 six months after I found a lump on my inner thigh. I had surgery in January 2010 to remove a tumor that originated from that original tumor. I underwent chemo and radiation for the first tumor--that was 11 cm when removed. I had no additional treatment for the lung tumor other than removal. The radiation burned my genitals. The chemo has caused me to lose feeling in my hands and feel. The last surgery caused ongoing pain on the right side of my body. Combined treatments and lack of activity due to pain and recuperation have caused me to gain at least 40 pounds. Every medication I'm given seems to have the side effect of weight gain and mood swings. I now take oxycodone but I live in fear of becoming an addict. I would like to hear what other people have done to deal with this as well as dealing with a loss of interest in living. I no longer take joy in anything, and I have trouble looking forward to what I read about in medical journals--such as a short life and death in a hospital. I am a very critical cynical angry person. I will share anything asked of me if it will help me find an answer. Thank you.