Mar 03, 2010 - 1:32 pm
I'm so glad to have found this board, I feel that it is helping me stay sane through this unbelievably difficult time.
My mother (age 57) was diagnosed with Stage III UPSC (rare and aggressive type of uterine cancer) in July 2008. She had a hysterectomy/oopherectomy, internal/external radiation and a course of chemotherapy, which she finished in March 2009. In December 2009 a recurrence was found - a tumor attached to the upper portion of her bladder. Surgery was scheduled for January 26th but she become emergent with a bowel obstruction and was rushed on a med-flight to the hospital and had surgery January 22nd. They removed the fist-sized tumor and did a 8" bowel resection. A CT scan last week already shows new growth, and the chemo oncologist doesn't want to put her on the chemo that the gyn-onc called "her best chance" because of the other issues.
I don't know what I am looking for here other than some relation to what my mom and our family is going through. I have ups and downs of feeling like she's going to beat it despite all the grim statistics, and imagining the worst. I'm sure that's normal.
It's so difficult to see someone fighting this. My mom has lived a very healthy life - she is physically fit, doesn't smoke or drink. The only cancer in our family is environmental - my maternal grandfather died of metastasized prostrate cancer after retiring from a nuclear weapons plant.
I'm an only child so sometimes it feels like I'm dealing with this alone. Nobody really knows what to do or say.
You're all an inspiration - I am having such a hard time with this and I'm not the one with cancer...it takes such strength and grace to maintain a positive outlook and I have a melancholic personality to begin with.
I love my mom so much...cannot fathom life or who I would be without my favorite person in the world.