Feb 19, 2010 - 8:43 pm
Need to whine. Which is worse - taking pain meds, or not eating? Took hydrocodone/APAP solution for pain a little while ago. I don't want to take pain meds. At this point, don't need them if I'm just sitting around - only took it just now so I can try to eat. Swallowing food seems to not be worth the effort. But I want to swallow food, at least once a day, even though my taste buds are mostly shot (I can taste some things - like a watered-down version of taste for some things, and yuckiness for others). I have a PEG tube in, so no starvation concerns.
I KNOW everyone loses their taste buds and it hurts everyone to swallow sooner or later when chemo and radiation are in the mix. I did rad 19 of 35 today. I felt like I was letting myself down when it occurred to me today that within a matter of a few days, I've gone to taking in very few calories orally. The pain med isn't doing much, but does cut the pain a little. No "magic" mouthwash, here. I want to swallow, and dread the idea of taking pain meds when I'm already constipated, and don't want to be sleepy and am struggling to get enough water in, and it still hurts to eat, just less. I've already lowered my standards, and am eating things that are bad for me now, just because I can eat them, and they've got calories - no enjoyment.
I just need someone to say "Man up, Pam - I made myself eat what I didn't want, and took meds I didn't want, and I'm glad I did", please. Whining over (for now).
Be well, everyone