Hello all! I haven't posted in awhile, but have been keeping up with you all via this board. Welcome to all the newbies...glad you've found us.
I need to vent/rant a bit as I've been feeling a bit down for some reason. I feel like I should be ecstatic as I'm celebrating 2 years NED in a couple of weeks...but I'm not. I've started on Abilify to help with the depression, but I feel awful that I need something to make me feel happy...I should be jumping up and down that I continue to be NED. Sometimes I feel as if I will never be "normal" again (ha...normal is a relative term in my case); that every new pain or cough or headache might be cancer...it's driving me crazy. Then there are these weirdo cramps I'm having...as some of you may remember, I'm having menstrual-type cramps all day every day, and still trying to track down the cause, and so far, so good, I guess...my oncologist and urologist can't find any reason for them - next stop, Gastroenterologist. I apologize for rambling on & on...having read this over, I'm not sure it makes sense even to myself! Anyhow, thanks to every one of you for being here for me.
Hugs to you all!