Feb 08, 2010 - 7:24 pm
I decided to sign up on this site because my father has lung and brain cancer. He was diag. oct 2008 and given six months to live. He is currently still alive, however, in the past month his health has taken a turn for the worse. He is now home with my mom and in care with hospice. I am having a very very hard time with this. I am almost 34 and i guess no one is ever really ready to loose their parent. He has ok days and not ok days. I am told by my mom to be strong along with my sister. I am strong in front of my father and most of the time in front of them but i am breaking down. It is so hard to see the strongest man i have ever known or will ever know lie in that bed and wilt away. He can no longer walk and he just looks so very ill. I feel alone even though my husband is wonderful and very supportive i feel like this is the hardest thing to deal with. I feel helpless that i can not help him. I look at him and think to myself how sorry i am for him. He doesn't deserve this. I guess i'm wondering if anyone out there knows what i and him are going through.