Jan 31, 2010 - 4:26 pm
I am almost done with my chemo and faced with the possibility of additional radiation or other treatment if it's not all gone by my last pet scan, and it's just starting to hit me that I'm going to have to deal with this crap for the rest of my life.
This pretty much freaks me out. During treatment, i was always in the mindset that this is only temporary, I'm going to beat it and then I can go on with my life. but the idea that if I get radiation I will most likely end up with breast cancer and heart issues makes me feel that I'm just buying time, that I won't get to live a long life like I always expected to.