Jan 29, 2010 - 4:53 am
Hello, all. You are going to think that I am a selfish being, as I also think. I feel very confused about the emotions I am going through right now. I was diagnosed with papillary adenocarcinoma endometrial cancer in June of last year. I went through some aggressive hormone therapies because I wish to have children. I had my first biopsy checkup this month and it came back with an inactive pattern, which the doctor says means I am cancer-free. I was elated at first, until I noticed that my family and fiance didn't seem to share my feelings. Now, this wouldn't have affected me that badly if I'd felt that they had been more supportive and caring during the time I was dealing with the cancer. I know I'm a strong person and come across as such, but I needed support and felt all alone. I brought it up a couple of times and they said I was not alone, but I have trouble seeing how they were there. They all seemed to be either avoidant or overly optimistic. I almost felt as if I couldn't even have my feelings. I feel again as though the feelings I had during the diagnosis and treatment were trivial and that none of this mattered. When sharing this frustration with my fiance, the only response he gave me was "I told you so", meaning that he told me everything would be alright. Is this normal that I feel a bit furious about this?