dumping again...

taleena
taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
I don't know what's wrong with me this week...but it's been a rough one...I feel so isolated.. tired... frustrated...and alone... I don't know why... nothing has changed... I am just all of a sudden really down... I can usually talk myself out of a funk, but for some reason I just can't seem to shake it.

I tell myself that part of the reason I'm feeling like this is because I haven't been sleeping well... working too hard... pushing myself too much...

I turn on the news and my heart breaks over all the chaois in Haiti, or the fear of people loosing their homes in California... three people murdered on the local news tonight, haven't seen the sun in ... well quite frankly, I can't remember the last time...sometime in November???

I'm not crying... just so down...
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  • Marcia527
    Marcia527 Member Posts: 2,729
    #2
    Maybe you need light
    Maybe you need light therapy. I'd do this when we lived in Connecticut and it was gray out. Turn all the lights on in the house and get it as light as you can. If you really want to be brave make one of those refectors out of tin foil and pretend you are sunning. I even read where one person turns up the heat and puts on shorts. I never went that far but whatever works. Hope you are better soon. Hugs. P.S. You could stop reading the news, at least till you feel better.
  • carkris
    carkris Member Posts: 4,553 Member
    #3
    Marcia527 said:

    Maybe you need light
    Maybe you need light therapy. I'd do this when we lived in Connecticut and it was gray out. Turn all the lights on in the house and get it as light as you can. If you really want to be brave make one of those refectors out of tin foil and pretend you are sunning. I even read where one person turns up the heat and puts on shorts. I never went that far but whatever works. Hope you are better soon. Hugs. P.S. You could stop reading the news, at least till you feel better.

    I have periods of time like
    I have periods of time like that and quite frankly its when I am tired and pushing too hard makes me feel more vulnerable and quite frankly sick. I think the weather has been a bummer and the news has been awful. Do something good for yourself. a manicure . I think sometimes I get really hormonal too. HUGS to you
  • Sunrae
    Sunrae Member Posts: 808
    #4
    carkris said:

    I have periods of time like
    I have periods of time like that and quite frankly its when I am tired and pushing too hard makes me feel more vulnerable and quite frankly sick. I think the weather has been a bummer and the news has been awful. Do something good for yourself. a manicure . I think sometimes I get really hormonal too. HUGS to you

    Sorry to hear you're feeling
    Sorry to hear you're feeling so down. It happens to all of us at one time or another. There are probably many reasons not the least of which is not getting enough sleep. I know that's hard to do when everything else seems wrong but when I'm not getting good sleep It really affects me. Try to do something different even if you don't feel like it. I go shopping (even if I don't buy anything), go out for lunch, see a movie or read a book, etc. Its been so dreary lately too. Remember the sun shines everyday somewhere and you'll see it again soon. Hope you feel better soon.
  • dyaneb123
    dyaneb123 Member Posts: 950
    #5
    Sunrae said:

    Sorry to hear you're feeling
    Sorry to hear you're feeling so down. It happens to all of us at one time or another. There are probably many reasons not the least of which is not getting enough sleep. I know that's hard to do when everything else seems wrong but when I'm not getting good sleep It really affects me. Try to do something different even if you don't feel like it. I go shopping (even if I don't buy anything), go out for lunch, see a movie or read a book, etc. Its been so dreary lately too. Remember the sun shines everyday somewhere and you'll see it again soon. Hope you feel better soon.

    Well I for one know that I
    Well I for one know that I suffer from light deprivation. When it's grey and overcast it's all I can do to get out of bed....when we had some snow days a week ago I literally laid in bed with my computer, tv and books for 3 days....As soon as the sun came back out I was up and raring to go... So,I just give in to it...I know it will pass and the sun will come back....
  • lynn1950
    lynn1950 Member Posts: 2,570
    #6
    Hi Taleena, I'm sending you
    Hi Taleena, I'm sending you a hug and kind thoughts to help you through the rough times. xoxoxoxo Lynn
  • rjjj
    rjjj Member Posts: 1,822 Member
    #7
    Hi T
    I do know how you feel...I have been in a slump myself lately I know that the sun makes a huge difference in our moods. I was diagnosed with S.A.D. (seasonal affective disorder) quite some time ago. The Dr. says it helps to tan or sit under lights. I don't do either anymore but it did seem to help some.
    Also, sleep is a big help, Trazadone is a good anti-depressant/sleep aide that i have used from time to time and thinking of using it again.
    The news is terribly sad lately...maybe get a good comedy movie...wish i could come over and watch it with you.
    hugs and wishes for sunny days ahead,
    Jackie
  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    #8
    Mix it up
    Hi Taleena,

    I am not sure what your health status is and if you are strong enough. But when living in NYC what
    I used to do in the dark gray days is either visit a botanical garden, surround myself with exotic plants
    and mentally get away or see some amazing art.

    One year they had a butterfly exhibit at the Museum of history, I think I went at least five time. They
    were soooo beautiful and you could in and they would surround you.

    Where will you look for beauty?

    Ayse
  • laurissa
    laurissa Member Posts: 773
    #9
    Hi, taleena
    I get down, too. Today I sat and cried about my bald head and how horrible I look, then felt so guilty about being that way with all the bad things happening in the world. I think about how healthy and energetic I was in 2008 after losing 50 pounds. Then gained 30 back and got breast cancer in Sept. I feel so drained from the chemo, it is depressing. You're not alone.
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    #10
    Marcia527 said:

    Maybe you need light
    Maybe you need light therapy. I'd do this when we lived in Connecticut and it was gray out. Turn all the lights on in the house and get it as light as you can. If you really want to be brave make one of those refectors out of tin foil and pretend you are sunning. I even read where one person turns up the heat and puts on shorts. I never went that far but whatever works. Hope you are better soon. Hugs. P.S. You could stop reading the news, at least till you feel better.

    Thank Marcia... Light
    Thank Marcia... Light therapy...that might do the trick. I actually have never heard about that one. It makes sence though. Stop watching and reading the news for awhile maybe a good idea for a bit too... I seem to watch a lot of news... and have you noticed??? It's never anything good!

    ♥ & hugs

    ~T
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    #11
    Sunrae said:

    Sorry to hear you're feeling
    Sorry to hear you're feeling so down. It happens to all of us at one time or another. There are probably many reasons not the least of which is not getting enough sleep. I know that's hard to do when everything else seems wrong but when I'm not getting good sleep It really affects me. Try to do something different even if you don't feel like it. I go shopping (even if I don't buy anything), go out for lunch, see a movie or read a book, etc. Its been so dreary lately too. Remember the sun shines everyday somewhere and you'll see it again soon. Hope you feel better soon.

    Thanks Sunrae... Sounds like
    Thanks Sunrae... Sounds like some good advise... something different... maybe then good sleep will follow... I really think sleep is the major contributing factor to my funk... Thanks for the advise.

    ♥ & hugs,

    ~T
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    #12
    dyaneb123 said:

    Well I for one know that I
    Well I for one know that I suffer from light deprivation. When it's grey and overcast it's all I can do to get out of bed....when we had some snow days a week ago I literally laid in bed with my computer, tv and books for 3 days....As soon as the sun came back out I was up and raring to go... So,I just give in to it...I know it will pass and the sun will come back....

    Hi Dee... thanks, maybe
    Hi Dee... thanks, maybe that's the idea, just let it ride out... I'm glad to know that others get into a funk too... Lately I see everyones moods up, and I feel so ugh... it's nice to know that others get into a funk too...Kind of makes me feel better realizing that.. :0)

    ♥ & hugs,

    ~T
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    #13
    lynn1950 said:

    Hi Taleena, I'm sending you
    Hi Taleena, I'm sending you a hug and kind thoughts to help you through the rough times. xoxoxoxo Lynn

    Thanks Lynn.... hug
    Thanks Lynn.... hug received... starting to feel better already...

    ♥ & hugs,

    ~T
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    #14
    rjjj said:

    Hi T
    I do know how you feel...I have been in a slump myself lately I know that the sun makes a huge difference in our moods. I was diagnosed with S.A.D. (seasonal affective disorder) quite some time ago. The Dr. says it helps to tan or sit under lights. I don't do either anymore but it did seem to help some.
    Also, sleep is a big help, Trazadone is a good anti-depressant/sleep aide that i have used from time to time and thinking of using it again.
    The news is terribly sad lately...maybe get a good comedy movie...wish i could come over and watch it with you.
    hugs and wishes for sunny days ahead,
    Jackie

    Awe Jackie...thank you...
    Awe Jackie...thank you... Your right a good comedy might just do it... that and possibly a sleep aid... Maybe I should just start singing that "Little Annie" song... "the sun will come out tomorrow..." yeah that one...lol

    ♥ & hugs,

    ~T
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    #15
    aysemari said:

    Mix it up
    Hi Taleena,

    I am not sure what your health status is and if you are strong enough. But when living in NYC what
    I used to do in the dark gray days is either visit a botanical garden, surround myself with exotic plants
    and mentally get away or see some amazing art.

    One year they had a butterfly exhibit at the Museum of history, I think I went at least five time. They
    were soooo beautiful and you could in and they would surround you.

    Where will you look for beauty?

    Ayse

    Ayse... yes, you are
    Ayse... yes, you are right... I guess if I opened my eyes I would see that there is beauty all around me, it's where I chose to look... A walk in the museum may be a good idea... We do have one here, not the best, but it is something.

    ♥ & hugs,

    ~T
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    #16
    laurissa said:

    Hi, taleena
    I get down, too. Today I sat and cried about my bald head and how horrible I look, then felt so guilty about being that way with all the bad things happening in the world. I think about how healthy and energetic I was in 2008 after losing 50 pounds. Then gained 30 back and got breast cancer in Sept. I feel so drained from the chemo, it is depressing. You're not alone.

    Oh Laurissa.... I guess what
    Oh Laurissa.... I guess what I needed was a reminder ... Crying is a good thing... my grandma used to tell me "the more you cry the less you pee"... (did you smile??) I hope you are resting and taking good care of yourself...

    ♥ & hugs,
    ~T
  • jk1952
    jk1952 Member Posts: 613
    #17
    taleena said:

    Oh Laurissa.... I guess what
    Oh Laurissa.... I guess what I needed was a reminder ... Crying is a good thing... my grandma used to tell me "the more you cry the less you pee"... (did you smile??) I hope you are resting and taking good care of yourself...

    ♥ & hugs,
    ~T

    T, I know exactly how you

    T, I know exactly how you feel. This has been a tough couple weeks for me. My husband's been out of town, I've worked six days a week, I've been sleeping less, and it's only light outside when I'm working. What a waste of light! Last Saturday, a lot of us expressed it as being lazy.

    I don't have any magic cure: when you find it, let me know. But, you've had some good advice.

    Joyce
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    #18
    jk1952 said:

    T, I know exactly how you

    T, I know exactly how you feel. This has been a tough couple weeks for me. My husband's been out of town, I've worked six days a week, I've been sleeping less, and it's only light outside when I'm working. What a waste of light! Last Saturday, a lot of us expressed it as being lazy.

    I don't have any magic cure: when you find it, let me know. But, you've had some good advice.

    Joyce

    Thanks Joyce... yep, your
    Thanks Joyce... yep, your right... I go to work in the dark, and come home in the dark... I love winter... but this one has been tough!

    If I find the cure for these blahs... I will be sure to bottle it up for sale.. than all of us will retire in complete style..

    ♥ & hugs,
    ~T
  • Sher43009
    Sher43009 Member Posts: 602 Member
    #19
    jk1952 said:

    T, I know exactly how you

    T, I know exactly how you feel. This has been a tough couple weeks for me. My husband's been out of town, I've worked six days a week, I've been sleeping less, and it's only light outside when I'm working. What a waste of light! Last Saturday, a lot of us expressed it as being lazy.

    I don't have any magic cure: when you find it, let me know. But, you've had some good advice.

    Joyce

    I also know how you feel. I
    I also know how you feel. I need the sun to make me feel human again. I'm also perimenapause so sleepless nights, hormones running wild come with it. I'm also triple +, so that doesn't help. My oncol. suggested that I get more exercise so I got a stretching tape that helps. I also go for a walk if I didn't sleep the night before and that helps me. I hope this all helps.

    Sher
  • taleena
    taleena Member Posts: 1,612 Member
    #20
    Sher43009 said:

    I also know how you feel. I
    I also know how you feel. I need the sun to make me feel human again. I'm also perimenapause so sleepless nights, hormones running wild come with it. I'm also triple +, so that doesn't help. My oncol. suggested that I get more exercise so I got a stretching tape that helps. I also go for a walk if I didn't sleep the night before and that helps me. I hope this all helps.

    Sher

    Thanks Sher... maybe that's
    Thanks Sher... maybe that's what I need... some excersise... haven't had much of that lately ...

    ♥ & hugs,

    ~T
  • Kat11
    Kat11 Member Posts: 1,931 Member
    #21
    taleena said:

    Thanks Sher... maybe that's
    Thanks Sher... maybe that's what I need... some excersise... haven't had much of that lately ...

    ♥ & hugs,

    ~T

    No Sun
    I know how you feel. I just said something to my rads girls yesterday. We have not seen the sun like you said don't remember when. Maybe next week one day. Today is the worst, Gray sky, rain, fog. House is dark.Need something to do can't wait for spring.

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