I can not tell you what a HARD, hard time I am having coming to terms with chemo. The more research
I do, the more unsettled I become. I already have my port and everything and I am supposed to be ready
to got but instead every cell in my body is still rebelling.
Did you actually do research and make a conscious decision, or did let your fear lead you? I am feeling rushed
and don't feel like I have time to make an educated decision.
Injecting something that causes 3rd degree burns on your skin if spilled, into my veins, just seems illogical.
I want to hear from women this actually helped and for more than just a couple of years. I have a serious
problem with chemo basically killing my immune system and leaving me open and vulnerable to everything
else to come. I don't mean to scare anyone or be negative but I really, really just want to hear from one
voice who can seriously say that chemo saved their life. The recurrence rate terrifies me and I wonder is
because of the damage that chemo does to the immune system that it can't fight anything anymore.
I am sorry... I think I am just freaking out, am just TERRIFIED. I wish I could be brave like you all but
if my mind can't process it and make sense of it, I struggle like this.
I need to hear this. I guess this is my fear talking
as well as my logical mind not understanding.