Jan 09, 2010 - 3:35 pm
I'm new here, sorry if I'm posting in the wrong place. I looked for a forum sticky but didn't see one. I'm trying to find someone to talk to because I'm scared and feeling really alone right now.
I found it in May of last year. It was on my shoulder blade, a little bump, thought it was a pimple so I popped it. Whatever it was wasn't a pimple, and it never quite healed. I tried to ignore it, and thought it was an odd mole.
A month ago I noticed that my back, which only had 3 beauty marks throughout my entire life is now covered with about 40 of them, and more lumps that look like the first, only smaller are starting to grow. And my shoulders are starting to have a constant burning feeling.
I keep telling myself it isn't cancer. I want to go to a doctor but I don't know how. Ever since I got laid off two years ago I decided to go back to college to get a degree for a real job, and next year will be my senior year. I'm trying hard to do good in life, I'm even getting a 3.7 gpa, I didn't want to get some skin condition. I've tried to get a job so I can get some kind of insurance, something so I can go to the doctor, but I don't have a degree yet and no where is hiring.
I called the help number and they directed me to a college that does free screenings, but the number is disconnected. I'm hoping that this is just because it is the weekend. I don't know for sure if I have skin cancer, but the bumps look exactly like the pictures of melanoma I've seen. I don't know if I can tell anyone, don't want to upset the family if it isn't cancer... but right now I'm carrying this all by myself and don't know anyone I can turn to or what to do. I just really want someone to talk to.
Sorry again if I am posting in the wrong forum. If I am please tell me somewhere I can post this or talk to someone about this.