Dec 26, 2009 - 4:50 pm
I don't know if this is due to Christmas parties where everyone is decked out in their holiday finery or what - but - I am feeling SO unattractive.
I had a good cry this morning (I haven't cried in many weeks) when I looked in the mirror. The cancer has stolen my breasts. The chemo took most of my body hair - including just ONE eyebrow and something has given me facial acne the likes of which I haven't seen since adolescence. I have run into several people over the past weeks who did not even recognize me.
I feel stripped of everything that is feminine. *sigh*
Do any of you ever just hate what you see when you look in the mirror? Intellectually, I know this is vain and superficial.
People tell me "For what you have been through, you look so amazing". Ha.
On another note: What would you do with just one eyebrow? Would you shave the other and attempt to use eyebrow pencil? I would love some makeup tips - since I've never worn much more than loose powder and mascara. Thanks for any input - and thanks for letting me whine.