Dec 15, 2009 - 8:34 pm
I know that no one here can help me, but I just feel the need to say how I'm dealing with my loss and pain. My husband, who was my best friend, passed from lung cancer on 10-13-09. I haven't been copping well at all. I'm on several medications, but the panic attacks are the worst. I can't even leave the house anymore.
I guess what I'm trying to say here is that I feel like my heart is just completely shattered. They say that God wants you to continue for a "purpose". I don't understand this because there is no purpose for me without my husband. Don't misunderstand me, I don't believe in suicide, to do so would ensure never being with my family again, however, if I'm supposed to stay for God's purpose....then what is it? I see nothing.