Be thinking about you tomorrow and sending up a special prayer that your CT scan is clear!!!
MIND, BODY AND SOUL!
I know you'll be clear. Post as soon as you get the good news!
I get my port tomorrow.
No bad news..
Please please no more bad new.... give us a chance to catch our breaths!
Thanks girls for always being so supportive. I am afraid to have good vibes, because the first one out of chemo I did and it was bad... I am all jumbled up when I get there... sometimes I am afraid I will pass out and fall off the table. I try to be graceful and breathe and nod my head.... but nornally my legs and arms are cold and numb and I feel I need to vomit at any moment! Wish I had something medicinal to take for anxiety tomorrow. I have never been a kook like that until the cancer, but I can get sick just thinking about tomorrow. AAAghhhhhh!!!! Makes me want to run far far away and never go to the doctor again. I wanna scream.... all the irrational stuff like "it's not fair, why me, I'm too young, I just got married, I wanna live....Then I think "we all want that, so what makes me think I am so special? I think I am crazy...a bubble off level. These follow ups make me irrational. I want to live, I want to live a very long time with my husband.......arghhhh!!! Oh, and I need to ask him why he has not done any pap smears since surgery? Should I ask about the EGFR and HK6? I don't know much about that, but I am paying him to explain and consider these things, right?
Thanks for letting me get that out. I do so appreciate all of my friends here, whom I know truly understand my craziness while waiting for these results. I will post as soon as I get home. Thanks again for caring and being here.
We are sooooo going to kick cancer's butt!!!
You know cancer is actually blessing for us. Think tsunami, those people didn`t have time to say good bye, or I love you. Maybe we don`t have eternity, but enough time to enjoy every single day. Since I was diagnosed even rainy day is nice.
Good luck tomorrow, you are fine like Linda. Her ca125 went down before chemo (because it is inflammation!!!!!)
You're welcome. You can pay the receptionist $120. See you next week. hehehehehh
Deanna.....by the time you read this you will be back home with good news, I am certain! Also, since you didn't sleep very well, maybe you will even get in a little nap and wake up feeling refreshed and ready to celebrate!!!
I hope yours works perfectly and you will love it. They can draw blood from it, give you chemo and even use it for the contrast during CT. Remember to make sure it can be used for CT, some of them can't. Mine was a "Power Port" and I can't recall which co. made it,but there are several that are marketed for their ability to be used during CT scans.
Good Luck. Post when you can. Love and hugs and happy thoughts. Hope you are feeling okay post chemo.
Deanna you remain in my prayers. I hope you get through the CAT scan without too much anxiety. Hope they get the vein on the first try. Hope you get good results, too. In peace and caring.