Dec 05, 2009 - 10:07 pm
As you all know, my husband passed on 11/24/09 and since the funeral I have just been going through the motions. I don't sleep much and then I force myself to get up in the morning and do what needs to be done. My family have all disappeared into their own lives again and life goes on. My brother-in-law and sister-in-law have gone back to their own lives and I don't hear from them. However, my nieces on my husband's side are doing their best to keep me occupied along with their husbands. I have picked out a tree to be cut and they are going to help me do that. The niece in Pennsylvania and her husband have asked me to come and spend Christmas with them and I have accepted. They will come and pick me up on Christmas Eve and I'm not sure when I'll be coming home. I just know that I need to get away from here for a couple of days and I hope that I won't be too depressing for the rest of the family. I'm sure that there will be some tears. I know that when I went to dinner at the niece's the other night, the kids just come right out with questions about Uncle and it doesn't phase them. They understand that he is gone but I don't think they really understand. They just know that they won't see him again.
I can't go into the room where he was right now. I started to clean it out last week but I just can't seem to do it now. It just hurts too much.