Nov 30, 2009 - 3:52 pm
It all happened so fast. On 10 Nov we found out that the tumour had recurred and metastasized. Paramjeet was already deteriorating by this time and so we were expecting bad news ...not the catastrophic news we received. His tumour has spread to four parts of the brain. Surgery is not an option anymore. On 17 Nov Paramjeet lost all mobility. He was rushed to hospital and his dex was increased. No change. 22 Nov he was moved into a palliative care unit. Because he has other complications I have to accept the fact that I will not be able to bring him home. He has not eaten for a week and has been asleep for the last 2 days. His breathing is laboured. I sit with him for 12 hours during the day and then head home to spend the night with our 2 girls aged 3 and 9. I spend all day waiting for him to open his eyes. It seems that on alternate days he has a few minutes of clarity. He is comfortable. Both sides of the family have been giving me grief. Everyone seems to want my strength but noone is lending me a shoulder to lean on. I feel so alone ...why can noone understand the pain I am going through.