Nov 27, 2009 - 3:54 pm
Well, I was diagnosed with Ewings Sarcoma in June 09. I'm in chemo now. I took to the first 6 rounds (orange stuff on a pump) really well with very little issues. Now I'm on a new kind & I hurt. I ache and I'm tired.
Really, I think I want a divorce. Cancer is hard enough. Sometimes he is great and makes me feel good. But most of the time he is a jerk. I'm the one making sure the kid's homework is done, that they do their chores, etc. I have ALWAYS worked (not prearranged that way) and he has not. When I got sick, I told him he needed to get a job, any job... He has never even looked.
I feel guilty that I'm not providing for my family like I used to. I feel lazy that I sit around all day doing NOTHING... It's driving me crazy!!!
Does anyone have any advice for me? Does anyone get where I'm coming from with issues with family members??
I have to start radiation now - after the doc said I wouldn't have to. And that scares the crap out of me! I am tired of things changing...