Nov 21, 2009 - 5:22 pm
I used to have a dream of a life so full of love, a home with a white picket fence and rocking chairs on the porch... God willing a child to raise, a home so full of laugher. Then cancer raised it's ugly head and took my life away. Now all I have are memories and dreams of what could have been. The house is empty and I am alone and the child will never be. My footsteps echo around the house with no one but me to hear. I can't smell you anymore.. I can't remember your voice... I can't remember your smile.... You don't come to me in my dreams.
I lied when I told you it was ok for you to go... All I wanted was for your pain to stop but now the pain is mine. My heart is broken.... I will never be the same, I miss you more than words can say and have cried a million tears. If I could just have one more day with you, a day free from hospitals, medications, pain and tears, a day to just love you and have you love me one more time.... we could sit and hold hands, look into each others eyes and know that we were mean't to be. I would make sure that the day would last forever..... But I have learnt the hard way... dreams never come true.. so until we meet again my love.. I will try to be strong... I will try and carry on living in this empty world. xxx
" Just When The Caterpillar Thought Her Life Was Over........She Became A Butterfly"