I have been crying. A lot. I have been trying to read your ornament posts outloud to my sweet Reggie, but I keep crying. I can't get through the loving expressions you all make without dissolving in tears. I am not even sure why~ but I do have some ideas.
You all touch me in ways you cannot begin to understand. Of course that isn't true~ we have touched each other, sight unseen in ways that I know you never expected either. The closeness, the honesty, the caring, the love, the Family ~ when you ventured into the ACS website and then read and finally posted on these boards, did you ever expect to feel so utterly free and connected with sisters you probably will never meet in person? With every warning you have ever given your children, did you hesitate for a minute to send me your name and mailing address? Did you expect the overwhelming feelings you are now experiencing at getting an ornament from a Secret Sister? OMG~ read your posts! They are eloquent. They are important. They are so incredibly heartfelt that they reduce me to tears.
All I wanted to do was exchange ornaments with Kindred Spirits..no pressure, not a big expense, not even, in the world of political correctness, religious overtones. And if you only knew how many of you responded you would be shocked/impressed and humbled. I know I was. And still am.
When I read how you reacted to the package being delivered, I was stunned. When I read what this means to you, I am stunned. And when you thank me, who did nothing but ask if you wanted to be a part of this~ my heart is so filled with emotion that I cannot speak.
You honor me, you humble me, and I want you all to know...the ones who participated, the ones who are living vicariously through our ornaments, the new ones, the long timers~ thank you. You make all of the struggle worthwhile. Thank you for sharing your lives with me...you deserve peace, health and happiness.
Hugs and gratitude,
Chen♥
