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November 12, 2009 - 4:05am

This is a blog I posted on the Expression's Gallery, I decided to post it here as well and ask where or what some of you do to renew your inner selves.

Today I was sitting with my husband enjoying one of the National Parks series on PBS (we had recorded it previously.) I love this series by the way as it is our desire to visit as many of them as is humanly possible once My Guy retires. Needless to say I was enjoying myself immensely when a woman on the show mentioned how many of us have a National Park that is near and dear to us, one that holds family memories, one that we visit and revisit. I thought yes ours is Yosemite since I am in California. We have taken our children there many times to camp and for day visits. We have gone in the winter, spring, summer and fall. My husband’s side of the family even rented a Cabin there for a reunion and to celebrate in-laws 50th anniversary as we converged from 3 different states to be together in a place of beauty. I camped with my parents there and my dad camped with his parents there. Each time I have had cancer I have gone to Yosemite for day trips to renew my inner self, my soul. We have hiked up to several waterfalls and visited Half Dome in the night hours to enjoy the stars with an astrology group and to greet the sunrise; it is a place of great beauty and strength.

This woman then went on to say she has spoken with many people who have retreated to National Parks in times of distress and illness for the comfort and fulfillment one experiences while there. She spoke of how she visited a National park with her family and brother in his last months of life as he was battling cancer. In an instant I was tearing up, I could not stop the emotions that even in happy moments seems to be just hiding under the brim of my soul. If you know me you know I am a pretty happy gal with a strong faith, but even so this sneaks up on me in moments I least expect it. I could relate to what she was saying, as mentioned above each time I have had to fight cancer I have gone to Yosemite. I have also hit the road and gone to Yellowstone, The Everglades, Mount Rushmore, Pointe Reyes, Muir Woods, and the Mojave. I have gone to these Parks both while in treatment and just afterwards. I go for the peace and tranquility they provide me, being there aides in my healing it renews my soul in a spiritual way no other place can. I suppose we all have places like this, they do not have to be National parks they just have to be places that calm our inner self and help us to heal.

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November 12, 2009 - 5:34am

The beach, the ocean breeze, and the sun are most calming to me. If I cant be there physically, I do a visualization which is absolutely a healing balm. A walk listening to nature, looking at the trees and flowers, quiet time reading positive, encouraging, and spiritual things are soul lifting. Prayer and reading the bible are also great tools for me, and of course looking at videous and photos of Charlie and Brooke always lift my spirits and reenergize me.

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November 12, 2009 - 1:44pm

We too love the ocean, my dad was a Navy seal so he took us there a lot. There is a town called Halfmoon Bay that we love to go to and ride our bikes along the ocean cliffs. It is so nice, we can sit up there and watch the whales as they migrate, dolphins as the splash and play and of course the pelicans as they nose dive into the ocean.

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November 12, 2009 - 1:44pm

We too love the ocean, my dad was a Navy seal so he took us there a lot. There is a town called Halfmoon Bay that we love to go to and ride our bikes along the ocean cliffs. It is so nice, we can sit up there and watch the whales as they migrate, dolphins as the splash and play and of course the pelicans as they nose dive into the ocean.

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November 12, 2009 - 9:14am

I think my first word must have been "outside". I believe I heal, recharge in nature too. Hubbie and I are going canoeing with an Audubon group this Sunday in the Manchac Swamp. Of course, afterwards, we are stopping at the legendary Middendorf's seafood restaurant for fried fish (not so healthy I know). We have been to Glacier and the Going to the Sun road is just breathtaking. Also been to Yellowstone and Olympic as well as smaller parks. Would love to get to Yosemite. Nearly every year, we visit the Selway-Bitterroot wilderness area in Idaho. I have done a lot of soul searching and praying on top of Coolwater Mountain. To be above the timber line, watching eagles and mountain bluebirds, knee deep in bear grass, huckleberries and indian paint brush--that is as close to peace as I can ever get! It removes my soul from cancer and allows it to fly free for a time.

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November 12, 2009 - 9:34am

Since my diagnosis I haven't had the money to even make a day trip anywhere, but there are a couple things that always renew my spirit.
One thing is church and more specifically, worshiping God in song! I always feel as though I could fly...And then, my grandchildren. It's impossible to be with them and not laugh and smile :-)

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November 12, 2009 - 11:22am

Just being outside can help me. I can look at the sky and feel the cool breeze on my face and just enjoy the tranquility of life in general.

Debby

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November 12, 2009 - 2:50pm

I love to sing hymns when no one is around :-) it does make me feel closer to the Lord. I agree grand kids are a great spirit lifter, I certainly enjoy mine!

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November 12, 2009 - 1:47pm

Cynthia you phrased it well when you said "It removes my soul from cancer and allows it to fly free for a time." that is what it feels like moments of fresh freedom.

By the way we too are planning on going to the Going to the Sun road, it look awesome and we can hardly wait!

Hugs,

RE

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November 12, 2009 - 10:01am

Re, how beautifully said!! For me, the ocean is my tranquility. I am fortunate to live just a half-block away and can stroll down as needed. It, too, has such a calming effect. Just being outside in the breeze, salt air and endless water can calm and clear the mind like nothing else, at least for me! Thanks for such a beautiful blog.

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November 12, 2009 - 10:09am

Its cold now, and I have not been out much. Just work, dr back and forth. I leaved in Colorado for years so the mountains are a memory away. But like Elizarose I can't wait for Sunday...music music music. I have cds from my church worship musics and they lift me and hold me up. Praise and Thankfullness. If I hang on to that my spirit soars and the bad falls away.

Becky

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November 12, 2009 - 10:46am



Thank you for your beautiful words. They hit so very close to home. I have had bc twice now, and, the war to fight it is tough and long, but, I still keep battling and winning in the end. I am facing a new scare now with these cysts, and, praying that they will be benign, so that I won't have to fight the beast a 3rd time. My husband and I always go to our "little park" that people seem to have forgotten about in the country to not only enjoy the beauty of all of its nature, but, to join hands and pray to God that he helps us once again. Remember the pic on my Expressions Page of the tree I am leaning against? You asked where that was and I told you it was this special "little park" that people didn't seem to go to anymore, but, that we loved. I think we all have "that place", it just varies, but, has the same effect and outcome on each and everyone of us battling bc. It renews our soul and lifts our spirits once again. Thanks again RE!

Love, Jeanne ♥

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November 12, 2009 - 1:30pm

Jeanne,
You have a leaning tree. How wonderful. I used to read the weekly comic For Better Or Worse and she had a leaning tree. And to have a park that in essence is almost exclusively yours, like your own little secret piece of nature is rather special. Maybe with all this upcoming stuff you need to visit your park and tree and lean a little while. Give over your fears and cares to God. Or maybe you have been. I hope so. I think that it would be good for your heart to share your burden and lift your spirits. If you can't go physcially, then send your burdens to your tree.
Stef

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November 12, 2009 - 8:32pm

Jeanne I remember the tree and your mention of that lovely park, I am glad you have that special place to go. I wanted to tell you that you continue to be in my prayers, you're gonna get through this gal and will be dancing with NED! Love ya!!

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November 12, 2009 - 2:53pm

Several years ago my husband bought me an Ipod and I have a ton of country hymns and traditional hymn on it as well as other music. I often hook it up to the stereo and listen and sing along with the hymns, it does wonders for my soul. I also used the ipod or walkman depending on which cancer battle it was during all my chemo sessions. I would put the earplugs in and go off to sleep during the infusion.

Thanks for sharing,

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November 12, 2009 - 1:50pm

Your photo gave you away :-D! We lived in Hawaii when I was a child and My Guy and I return whenever possible. Actually after my mastectomy he took me to Kauai for a week of peace and quiet. I agree the ocean most certainly has a calming effect.

Hugs,

RE

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November 12, 2009 - 12:21pm

I feel I can renew my soul in a spiritual way best outdoors. Where there is grass and trees or nature, not in the city. I love the state parks but just going into the backyard will do. Especially mornings when the sun is just coming up. It's a special time.

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November 12, 2009 - 1:25pm

There is definitely something about the majesty of the outdoors that helps renew us. It could be the grandeur, the beauty, the peace and for some it is a visual of their god. I love Yosemite. We go there several times a year. One year, we went at Thanksgiving. Even the valley was covered in snow. It was quiet, peaceful and beautiful. The following spring we returned. Because there had been such a heavy snowfall that year, the river was raging, the falls were the best they were supposed to be in years. Bridal View was literally wetting down every car in the parking lot with its spray. And Yosemite Falls was unbelievable. It was also later that year that the slide closed one of the main roads in. We have never seen the river like it was that day. You could see where it had cut deeply into the banks on either side. It was so high that areas of the meadow were still flooded. We stayed at the Yosemite Lodge in a room that overlooked the river and it was spectacular. Such power. I love all the seasons there, but I think that my favorite was that quiet winter. I felt such peace and it was so enchanting. And then there was the time that we were walking the ramps in the meadow and had just reached the river and a coyote came out of the brush, practically bumped into my hubby, stopped and stared at us and walked on down the ramp. No fear, no threat, just the three of us enjoying the day. Thank you Re for renewing these happy memories for me. You are the best.
Stef

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November 12, 2009 - 4:31pm

You inspired me and I posted some Yosemite pictures and some other pictures on my expression page. I didn't know that they also show up on the general expressions page. I kind of hogged it up but I didn't know that all of them went there as well. But they are nice pictures of Yosemite, my family etc. Next time I will only do one or two pictures at a time.
Stef

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November 12, 2009 - 5:53pm

Stef you didn't hog it all up, you posted some wonderful photos that I am quite sure will inspire many. Thank you for sharing, Yosemite is truly majestic any time of the year!

Love,

RE

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November 12, 2009 - 8:54pm

Your photos are beautiful - thanks for sharing!

It's been a while since I've been to Yosemite, but looking at the photos brings me at least some of that peace that I feel when I'm in majestic places like that.

Even though it's just starting to feel like fall here, I already can't wait until the summer so I can plan my next camping trip!

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November 12, 2009 - 9:01pm

I think I knew other people felt that way about national parks, but you really explained so well how I feel about my connection. I grew up in Wyoming and our house was just a couple miles outside Grand Teton National Park and 50 miles south of Yellowstone. My great-grandfather homesteaded on land that is now part of Grand Teton. I have always felt a deep connection to those mountains and all the beautiful wilderness that is in Yellowstone.

We now live in Washington State and unfortunatly I don't get to visit those places very often anymore. I must still feel the need to connect somehow, because part of my daily routine for sometime now has included looking at the webcameras located in Grand Teton, Old Faithful and some of the other parts of Yellowstone. It has always gives me a sense of calmness to know that the wilderness of those places is still there. Like I just need to check in everyday. It reminds me of my childhood and the incredible time we spent in those places. Somehow just knowing that it is still there and remembering what I feel like when I am there helps me. Even if it is only a virtual visit!

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November 12, 2009 - 10:30pm

I do not know why my posts are not showing up under the original post but I shall try again. Mickeymom we visited Yellowstone in 95 before I had cancer, we briefly visited the Tetons (we will revisit the Tetons I promise). My Guy and I are going to Yellowstone this June with his brother to introduce his girl friend and grandson to its beauty. I am hoping my daughter and her family and my son and his girl friend will also be able to go as well. I am a shutter bug so I will be posting pix in June. I truly do LOVE our National parks.

Hugs,

RE

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November 12, 2009 - 9:03pm

I know just what you mean, I take my dog Tootsie for a run in God's magestic badlands of Montana, nothing fills my heart with so much peace.
love and Hugs, jckie

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November 12, 2009 - 9:08pm

I am always struck with the enormity of it, compared to little old me....

It calms my fears, and takes me to a very soft and gentle place...

Thanks for reminding me of this...I remember last winter, in Holland, the day was all white (snow and ice) and blue (the sky...an amazing color...) My heart hurt it was so beautiful and so perfect!

Hugs, Kathi

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November 12, 2009 - 9:14pm

As you well know, I am almost never at a loss for words....but your post left me speechless. I sat back reflecting on places and aromas, textures, and sounds. I exhaled deeply and felt very satisfied inwardly. And I thank YOU for that RE~ you made me aware of the beauty of our special places and just why they affect us the way they do.

Hugs,
C♥

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November 14, 2009 - 9:48pm

You are too kind Claudia. By the way I read somewhere that the next time you are in Sacramento you would like to meet with Stef and I, sounds great to me!

RE

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November 12, 2009 - 9:15pm

I really really really hate double posts! LOL

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November 13, 2009 - 7:50am

RE,

That was a great post. One thing I've noticed about myself is that for a long time it was hard for me to see the colors and textures in nature. Not literally hard for me to see, but everything looked kind of dull. I drive through the country on my way to and from work each day past farm fields of corn, soy and pumpkins. I see cows, horses, cranes, deer, hawks, ducks, pheasants and wild turkeys. I see trees, creeks, tractors, farm equipment, farm houses, barns and other buildings. I was so caught up in the day to day work/home routine that I didn't "see" these things anymore.

After my diagnosis with bc I drove to work and I saw everything - the colors, the textures of the fields, the many animals that live near the roads, the clouds and the different colors in the sky. It was like I needed to notice those things and not take them for granted as I had in the past (like my life).

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November 13, 2009 - 1:47pm

Wolfi, thank you I am glad you enjoyed the post it was an easy one to write as it was coming straight from the heart. I have noticed that I appreciate things more as well, not only that but my children do too. My daughter now calls her children outside to see a pink sky or the sand cranes as they fly over our home. My son will call me to tell he saw a beautiful rainbow etc. This cancer seems to have heightened our awareness of all that is around us.

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November 13, 2009 - 3:02pm

When I need to get away for a little while I just walk out into our backyard. Seems like I am closest to God in my garden. There I can pray, meditate, reflect, work out my thoughts, express my frustrations, emotions and find peace; and no one around to break the quiet of the moment. A few years ago we were blessed to find our sanctuary in a rural area but still close to the city. We set about to make it our own "special place" and over the years our yard has grown more beautiful and is thriving. I've posted pics of our yard on my expressions page. Our children and grandchildren love to visit us and they enjoy all the benefits too. We also enjoy being at the ocean off season. We walk for miles, watching the ebb and flow, tossing shells back, catching the breeze and finally just sitting on the beach while the last rays of sunshine fade into the velvet evening. It's a glorious time for us when we can take the time to just enjoy creation all around and marvel at all the beautiful things. Even if our body has been imprisoned in some way, our minds can still soar!

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November 13, 2009 - 8:51pm

Sunrae I did see your posts on the expressions page your yard is beyond lovely it is a most serene place indeed. I certainly can see how you could walk out there and relax. You are right too when you say our minds can still soar. Thank you for sharing your beautiful grounds with us.

RE

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November 14, 2009 - 12:08pm

I'm so lucky to be able to look west and see the mountains - everyday on my drive into work I look along the range and am so thankful there is such beauty all around! I'm truely blessed to be here. Growing up in the mid west, I didn't see my first mountain until I was 12 or 13. I've been here for almost 33 years now and still love it. Of course when I go home - the Iowa cornfields are just as lovely. Life is good!
-thanks for all the sharing your post prompted.
-Jenny