Nov 06, 2009 - 8:34 pm
I was diagnosed with endo cancer at the age of 28. I was told after my complete hyst. that there was no treatment necessary. The cancer was only staged at 1B and hadn't made it through the lining of the uterus. I have gone faithfully to my ob/gyn since this time. Every 3 months then 6 months. Every time holding my breath until I found that my pap came back normal. In Feb. my pap came back abnormal. After doing a biopsy they did not find anything and went ahead and did a cold knife cone to get as much of the cervix out as possible. Then cauterized my vagina. I was to go back in 6 months. In August during my "routine" exam the pap came back abnormal again. So my ob/gyn sent me to a gyn/oncologist. Who has also found nothing and is going to see me again soon. The visit to the oncologist was VERY scary, I saw women who obviously have gyno cancers and it was awful that the doctors think that I may belong with them. Even though they had pleasant looks on their faces, I couldn't help but wonder what I was doing there and how do they go on.
I have never really thought of someone who needed help. I can't seem to know what I am supposed to feel. I get sad, because I'm scared, because I don't know when the doctor will call again with bad news and I'm scared because I expect the doctor to call me and give me more bad news.