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For anyone wishing to post something in loving memory of someone they've lost to cancer, this board is for you.

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In Loving Memory of my dear husband Don who went to be with Jesus on 10-13-09. I love and miss you with all my heart! Always and forever my love.

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Tina Blondek
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I would like to post a loving memory to my dad, Ray, who lost his battle with cancer on 3/9/10, you are greatly missed, but we know that you are in a much better place now with no pain or suffering. I will always be your daddy's little girl. Until we meet again.....Love, Tina

Lois_daughter
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Joined: Oct 2009

In loving memory of my mom Lois, who lost her battle in March and is now with GOD. She was my best friend and a remarkable person. I will miss her sense of humor, her intelligence, and her compassion for every person and every animal she met. I so wish we had more time together. Forever in my heart. Love - kelly..

Cindy Bear
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Joined: Jul 2009

In loving memory of my mother, Alveda. She passed away in June 09, from endiometrial cancer. Her death has left a huge, gaping hole in our hearts.
I cannot imagine time healing this wound. She was a brave little soldier fighting a battle which ultimately she could not win. My aunt said it best, 'If she's not in heaven, nobody is."

doug2112
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In loving memory of my mom Judy. Lost her today Jan 1 2010 .

Remember me when flowers bloom
Early in the spring
Remember me on sunny days
In the fun that summer brings

Remember me in the fall
As you walk through the leaves of gold
And in the wintertime - remember me
In the stories that are told

But most of all remember
Each day - right from the start
I will be forever near
For I live within your heart

Don't worry mom I will take good care of the animals ... Your Son Doug.

ManyWheat
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Joined: Nov 2009

I lost my Mom today to ovarian cancer....it hasnt even been a year since her diagnosis. I love her and miss her so much. I have no idea what to do. I'm 25 and have already lost my father too. I love my Mom so much, she was an amazing mother and exceptional nurse. I am happy that she is no longer in pain though. I hope she knows what she means to me and that she will be missed greatly....but NEVER forgotten.

Hugs to you Mom.
BranDee

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angelsbaby
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May you rest in peace Jan 10 1956 -- april 16 2009. Died from colon cancer. I miss you so much and love you with all my heart, Til we meet again

michelle

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membermeg
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My mom went to be with Jesus July 26. 2009. She was my best friend, my rock, my spiritual advisor, my man rater, my laughter during a long day at work. She dried my tears after a bad breakup, she rubbed by back when I was sick, I miss her smile, her STRONG faith in GOD, the love between my father and her, even after 30 years, I miss her eyes light up when her "honeybuns" aka my dad was calling her, I miss going to goodwill going on "treasure hunts", feeding the birds, talking about absolutely nothing 10 times a day. She was my sun during a rainy emotional day, She got me out of a deep depression after a horrible break up, she helped me find my husband. I miss her silly little sayings, I miss singing together "She don't know she's beautiful" at the top of our lungs to one another. I miss telling her how beautiful she was even though chemo took her hair. Chemo takes a lot out of a person, but my mothers spirit and fight was a constant for 20 years. She fought for 20 years and never once threw in the town. She fought down to the last second and only when my dad, my 2 brothers and myself told her it was ok to go meet her God did she take her last breath. I love you mom, and I cannot wait to see you when I go meet our God. God bless you all.

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aandj
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Words can’t describe the feelings of loss I have for my Angela even after the nine months we have been apart. I have been fortunate to have spent 7 wonderful years with her. It has been an honor to have been by her side through her 15 month struggle and saddened that I could not have done more. In the words of one of her favorite lyrics; come what may she will always be in my heart, be at peace my Angel, be at peace. I will miss you always my love.

I will try to remember this every day....

When I come to the end of the road
And the sun has set for me
I want no rites in a gloom-filled room
Why cry for a soul set free

Miss me a little, but not too long
And not with your head bowed low
Remember the love we once shared
Miss me - but let me go

For this is a journey we must take
And each must go alone
It's a step in the Master's plan
A step on the road home

When you are lonely and sick of heart
Go to the friends we know
And bury your sorrows in doing good deeds
Miss me - but let me go...

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RE
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I posted this in August in the expressions gallery and have decided to post it her since this board is specifically for this purpose.

I am honoring my MOM.

My mom was a great lady in many ways, she was always a survivor. At the age of 8 she lost both of her parents and was somewhat raised by her older sister along with many other siblings. She endured this less than happy existence to the age of 12 when she decided it was time to make her own future and she left. She married at 15 had 3 children and left an abusive relationship with her kids in tow, during my mom’s time women just didn’t do that but she did. She worked hard to support her children and did not date for years because men were not to be trusted, then she met my dad the Navy Seal. She married him and became a Navy wife which is in its self quite a challenge. She would tend to us while my dad was at sea and even though I am sure she was lonely she never let on, we never knew. My mom was a rock, an amazing woman who even with all the challenges in her life always came to the aide of others. I can recall times when she would take less fortunate folks to meetings to ensure they got the military vet benefits they deserved and others who she fought to see that they received SSI in their final days, this is a woman who only went to the third grade, she was truly remarkable.

Cancer arrived when she was 40 and she had the radical double mastectomy which in her time was horrendous nothing like it is now. When I was 19 I would take her to her chemo treatment at the military hospital nearly 2 hours from home. I remember the fun we had on the way to her treatments, we would joke and chat and just enjoy being together, then she would have her treatments (folks 33 years ago chemo was much crueler than it is today) she would be down immediately and would remain that way for the better part of ten days. We did this 8 times and then she got a reprieve during which time she lived her life to the fullest, it was not perfect by any means but it was meaningful and she was an inspiration to many. My mom cared for my children and my sister’s children while we worked, she was so fabulous at it they loved her like she was their mom which gave us a great sense of comfort knowing how well our children were cared for and loved while we were working. Recently my daughter had her third child a little girl she named her AvaLyn in honor of my mom Evelyn; she did not want to use the exact name I am thrilled she would honor my mom in such a way.

When I think of my mom I think of her incredibly soft skin (which I did not inherit :-]), her wonderful sense of humor, and her ability to stand toe to toe with anyone and hold her ground, her lovingness, kindness and inner beauty. She was stunning both inside and out. My mom was my best friend, I called her everyday several times a day, we even called each other at night to say goodnight. I miss her a great deal and draw comfort from the knowledge that on the day I leave this world she will be there to welcome me into the next. I love you mom and always will!

Forever you loving daughter Rena (your bull in the china closet)

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RE
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December the 15th will be the 2nd year since my sister Susan passed away of cancer. Susan was my big sister, the oldest child of five. She was the life of any gathering, the hostess with the mostess and had a heart of gold. She also had a great faith and assured us in her last days and hours that she knew exactly where it was she was going, Heaven. In honor of my big sister and in honor of others who left us in years past here is a poem I know she would have loved.

CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN

I see the countless Christmas Trees
around the world below,
with tiny lights, like Heaven's stars,
reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular, please
wipe away the tear,
for I am spending Christmas with
Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that
people hold so dear,
but the sound of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir here.
I have no words to tell you of the joy
their voices bring,
for its beyond description, to hear the
angels sing.

I know how much you miss me: I see
the pain inside your heart.
But I am not so far away: we really
aren't apart.
So be happy for me, dear ones, you
know I hold you dear,
And be glad I'm spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift from my
heavenly home above,
I sent you each you each a memory of my
undying love.
You know love is a gift more precious
than pure gold;
it was always most important in the
stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, as
my Father said to do.
For I can't count the blessings, of the
love he has for you.
so have a Merry Christmas and wipe
away that tear.
Remember, I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.

My mother's birthday was Christmas day and she left this world in August of 2000, so each year on Christmas day at the dinner table I say grace and wish her and Jesus a Happy Birthday. Personally I would much rather have them both here with me, but since that is not reality I choose to believe as they did and draw comfort from the knowledge they are here just not in the physical sense.

hansie
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Joined: Jul 2008

my wife barbara was dx sclc in nov of 07.she fought so bravely,allwas having a good attitude,a smile and words of encouragement for our boys,who were 11 and 12 at the onset.She allways held her head high,and allways thought of her boys before herself. Ultimately the cancer had its way with her,and eaven as she lay dying she was a insparation of strenght and courage.She left us to go to heaven on 10/14/09,where i know she is finaly at ease,but oh how we all miss her.Our lives will never be the same without you love...

jonahsmom
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Joined: Jun 2006

Today, like every day, I am missing my son Jonah. Jonah was just seven when he went to Heaven. I wake up and he's my first thought. I go to sleep and he is my last thought. I dream about him. I can still smell him. He is the greatest man I've ever known and I am honored to be his mother. I love you Jonah!

Greg48
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Joined: Nov 2008

In loving memory of my wife Jeanette 12/01/2009 . I have been so lost
without you , I miss you and love you with all of my Heart.

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RE
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In loving memory of my brother in-law who lost his battle to throat cancer ten years ago. Ron cared so deeply for my sister and was as wonderful husband to her. He was loved by many as was evident at his farewell service. He was a veteran of Vietnam who was proud of his time served. He loved white water rafting, fishing, and duck hunting. Ron also owned a bar with my sister and was successful because he was so genuine. We miss him and continue to love him.

RE

AngelicBlue
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In loving memory for Dirk Kievit, passed away February 21, 2005 after a long battle with lung cancer, he was 87. My opa gave up from the beginning because radiation didn't help and his cancer was too aggressive. He hung on for a year and a half before the cancer took him. He was a good man, and loved his family very much. He was all about family, and kept us all together.

In loving memory for AnnaBeth Kievit, passed away December 31, 2008 after a 8 year battle with Stomach Cancer. She was one of the strongest people I knew and I will miss her dearly. For awhile there, we were each others comfort zone, because we understood what the other was going through. We grew closer in the fact we both battled cancer. It upsets me that I beat mine while she lost, but she lived a good life. My oma was 76 when she passed away, and there will be many glorious memories of her that will always be in my heart.

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RE
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In remembrance of Al and Carol (my brother and sister in-laws). For over 30 years my husbands family would gather at their home in the California desert for Thanksgiving. We would all hang out there for 3 to 5 days just enjoying everyone's company and catching up. They had horses, pigs, dogs galore, peacocks, goats and even a donkey. My kids got to ride the horses, play with the dogs and run amuck, what joy! We have since lost them both to cancer, we miss them greatly.

RE

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Cat64
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of my dearest friend Tom (Peaches) who passed away 12/5/09 from Pancreatic Cancer. We were always there for each other when life's challenges got the best of us and shared a special bond. His wife, who was one of my very best friends for such a brief time, also passed 5 years ago. I will feel such a void in my life without him as I have without her. They were both one of a kind. I promised my friend I would look after him when she was gone & hope that I honored my promise to her expectations. I find comfort in knowing that he is at peace & without pain and is back into the arms of his love. He will be missed and thought of with the fondest of memories.
Cat (aka Polly)

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Hondo
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I lost my Mother to Colin Cancer and my brother to Lymphoma but through it all my Lord, my Savior and my Friend Jesus has been there for me. Even now that I go through NPC I am not alone for he is there to comfort me in my travel through this life. I look forward to that day when Jesus come back for his people who have put there trust in Him.

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llong
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On June 9th I lost my husband, Bud, to esophageal cancer that had spread to many lymph nodes and ultimately, his liver. He was diagnosed in Sept. 07 & fought long and hard. He lived 8 mo. longer than predicted. He was involved in a 1 yr. clinical trial; when that stopped working, he did "reg" chemo; when that stopped working, they added radiation; when it spread to the liver and was growing fast, he went to Chicago for 3 separate rounds of photodynamic therapy. He was on his way to start another round of radiaion when he collapsed and died. He faught to the finish. He's been gone for 6 mo. now and his absence has left a bottomless hole in my life and in my heart. I pray for peace, warm memories, and healing to take the place of the pain and anger I feel. Bud was the best husband, friend, confidante, cheerleader, and soul mate I could have ever dreamed of and wished for. I miss him terribly.

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Hondo
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That is a beautiful post about your husband; I have been married for 35 years now and often I would think about what will happen to my wife. She too is a very strong woman and I was so lucky that God lead her into my life. She is so much more then a friend, she is the one I can share all my problems with and I know that they are safe there with her.

We talked about what would happen if I should pass away before she did, and I told her she should never give up or stop living just because I am no longer in the picture, she is to go one living. Our three children all live in the same area where we do and the grand children are starting to come out of the woodwork now. We are both Christian and both believe that our Lord Jesus will come back for us someday, that is a day we look for where we will never again be apart.

I think your husband would feel the same way about you; he would want you to keep living, keep going on with out him. I know it is hard everyday waking up and not seeing him there, but he is always there in your memories.

God bless and keep you in his tender care

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Jadie
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He has been gone for almost 25 years now but it seems like only yesterday. I still miss him so much. He was a simple man who had a great love for the simple things in life. He loved nature, roaming in the mountains, gathering ginseng and other roots. Scaring us to death telling us about all the rattlesnakes that he came across. He escaped the rattlesnakes and was taken from us all too soon by something worse, lymphomia.

I cry as I type this. Prehaps I haven't let him go. Perhaps I can't. Maby I don't want to.

6 year breast cancer survivor
Jadie<3

VansMom
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Our beautiful son, Van, died of Lung Cancer December 18, 2009 just six weeks after being diagnosed. He had one round of chemo and developed a blood clot in his arm which had to be blasted. When the blood clot was broken up part of it went directly to his lung and he had to be put on a ventilator. He died a week later when we elected to take him off the ventilator. By that time he was at 100% and the doctors told us he would probably have a heart attack within the next few days. He lasted 39 seconds after being removed from the ventilator and died surrounded by his family. I miss him so much and not a day goes by that I don't cry. He had been given six to nine months to live if we did nothing and I so want that time. He was so brave and faced his illness with grit and poise. He worried more about his parents then himself. His Dad and I were so proud of him. And now he's gone but we will remember him forever. Why is it that Lung Cancer takes so many lives and yet is one of the lowest funded cancer research illnesses? Why is there still no viable cure? Haven't we learned that it attacks more than just smokers? So many questions and yet so few answers. Van, we love you and miss you and will find a way to fight Lung Cancer for others like you.

MYFATHERSDAUGHTER
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My father passed away 2-15-2010. He was first diognosed with bladder/ prostate cancer April 29 2009. He had his bladder removed July 18th 2009. They thought he was fine had nothing to worry about until they found out the cancer leaked into his blood stream.He did 2 months of Chemo Thanksgiving week he was diognosed with Brain cancer (15 rounds of radiation) Week of christmas he was diognosed with lung cancer and first week of January he was diognosed with Bone cancer. When they took his bladder and prostate out they said he was going to be fine. At thanksgving they told him 6-12 months. January they said 2 weeks to 2 months. Then passed away February 15 2010. He fought hard he did not want to go so soon. He was only 60. I was Daddy's little girl and I miss him so much. He was such a wonderful man. Me, my husband and my two children ages 10 and 6 still had so much to learn from him. I am not sure that this will get any easier, the physical pain and heartache of missing him. Knowing all the things that he can't share in with us. Not being able to watch his grandkids grow up.But I am so happy in the time that I got to sare with him. At least to and from all the dr appointments we had great talks. I learned alot about my dad in those 10 months. I am so happy I was able to be there for him and take care of him. I love you daddy and don't worry I am taking care of everything the way you wanted. I will forever miss you.

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Tina Blondek
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Hello Myfathersdaughter,
So sorry for your loss. I, too, was my daddy's little girl. I lost my dad to esophageal cancer with mets to his liver on 3/9/10. He too fought to the end. I think of him daily, I dream of him coming back and being cured. I sometimes have a constant ache in my chest. I try my best to know that he is in such a better place now. No more pain, suffering, or cancer. I do treasure those moments I also had with my dad as I would take him to his dr appts and treatments. Our special treat was to go have an ice cream cone on the way home. We also had many discussions about all kinds of things. Think of the happy times. You are not alone, I and all of us here are here for you! Keep in touch.
Tina

Roshell
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Dealing with ur lost my friends was hard at first but now i think he was ready for u so he took u back ur work on earth is finished so rest on..... To three (2) friends that I've lost I could never forget or stop loving u guys,,,,,,, Jarmarly an Paul

cbcardb12
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Joined: Mar 2009

CB Hinson
6/26/51 - 5/31/10

I miss you everyday honey dribbles. I know you are in a better place, but I so wish you were here with me.

Carolyn

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filimu
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Joined: Aug 2010

I remember my daughter, lost to lung cancer in 2000, my father, lost to lung and bone cancer also in 2000, and my husband, lost to amyloidosis in 2005, the day before my birthday. I miss them all, every day...and love them no less because they aren't here. Watching their fights gave me the strength I needed when I found I had breast cancer July 09, and I am keeping their fight alive. God bless us all.

ydeluis01
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Joined: Jul 2010

Sadly I lost my mom who was my best friend to cervical and Stage 4 Lung Cancer on Friday July 29th. She fought a short hard battle and only survived 3 months after being diagnosed with cancer. She never smoked a day in her life and was a wonderful special person. She lived wih me and my husband Yvio for the last 5 1/2 years since i lost my dad to lung cancer on Sept 14, 2004. I am only 39 and have only my husband left. I still can't believe that both my mom and dad are gone but I know they are both in a better place now with Jesus and are no longer suffering and in paid. I love you mom and dad and I will see you again some day.

Your loving Daughter,
Tina

EmN
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Joined: Aug 2011

I wrote this song as a tribute and as a way of maybe soothing all those families who have lost a loved one to cancer.Please feel free to download and do as you like with it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aV2QLO7DEOY

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LL
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Joined: Aug 2010

My husband Wayne, passed away on April 28, 2011 after a 3 1/2 year fight with Pancreatic Cancer. We were married 14 years and together for 21 years. Tomorrow will be 15 weeks since he has departed and I miss him dearly. My life has changed forever.
I feel for everyone who has lost a spouse. I am only 40 years old and already a widow. Who would have ever dreamed?

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Fran Chandler
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I miss my friend so very much. She was there for me while I have gone thru kidney cancer, kidney removed,bladder cancer,hopefully in remission. She had pain in her rib and thought she had cracked a rib, May 12th went to ER and told she had 2 to 4 months from stage 4 lung cancer. She passed away July 10,2011. She was a wonderful friend and person. She left a husband and a 90 year old mother, who she took care of. I know she has a place in heaven, and I hope I will see her again some day.
Her name was Harriett Yarling, Born September 29,1953 passed away July 10,2011

3Mana
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Honey, It's going to be 18 months on the 25th since you left me. I never will forget that horrible night and how I couldn't help you. I'm sorry you had to die the way you did. We both had so much hope cause it seemed like the chemo & radiation was helping alot. Then you had that "rare" side effect from the chemo that took you from me.
I will love you forever!! Your loving wife, Carole

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txtrisha55
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My Mom, Lorene, who everyone called Rene, passed away May 1, 1992 from soft tissue sarcoma that had spread throughout her body. I miss her a lot and so does my sister and my daughter. She was a wonderful Mom and Grandmother, my daughter called her Gran. She was funny, loving, took everyone in, fed everyone of our friends, cheated at card games, laughed out loud, beautiful, protective, She had a lump on her leg that we kept asking the dr about, he said it was just a calcium deposit all the while pushing on it. (Quack). She fell at home in mid January 1992, ambulance took her to the hospital, where she was admitted, ran test found nothing but she was in pain and could not walk, stayed there a month. She was then transferred to another hospital where they did a biopsy on the lump and scans. That afternoon the results were in that it was a soft tissue sarcoma and that it had spread to a tumor enclosing her spine and pushing on the nerves of the L5 nerve controlling her lower back and legs, thus the continuous pain and no control of her legs.
Drs there said they could not operate because it was on the spine but could do chemo and radiation. My sister and I asked what stage, remember this is almost 20 years ago, the drs said cancer had no stage. (BS) We agreed to all the treatments because we thought there was a chance. Her life became a living hell, no quality of life; radiation was a nightmare for her. Chemo was slightly less so. Eventually the drs said they could do no more but could cut the spinal cord so she did not feel any more pain in her legs. She was here two months. Transferred to a nursing home mid April. Passed away 1 May. She was 68.
She is still missed to this day. My daughter still has the last perfume bottle of hers, Youth Dew by Este Lauder and it still smells like her. We have pictures all over the house of her in various years from childhood to Christmas 1991. We live in the house that belonged to our parents so the memories are there.

emma99306
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This is in loving memory of my Mum who died in April of breast cancer. She was the most remarkable person alive and was to young to die. I always beieve that life is a test to God, whoever dies have passed the test first. May you R.I.P mum, i love you loads. xxx

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lostmyheart
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Of my loving husband who died from colon cancer on 3-19-12 at the age of 53.
I love you.

Also in loving memory of my dad, my brother in law, my mother in law, my uncle, and my grandfather. All died from different forms of cancer, all are still missed in our hearts.

I hate this disease.

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