Oct 30, 2009 - 12:00 am
Hey all I am new to this site. Wished I would have found it a long time ago. My name is Trinity. In Feb of 08, we found out Mom had stomach cancer. Very early, and with a simple surgery she would be like new again... A couple weeks later after futher testing an PET scan they found a tumor in her right upper lobe. 2 weeks later we were in UW of Madison, awaiting Moms surgery to remove her right upper lobe. After what was only supposed to take 2 hours end up taking 4.5hours, we found out that not only was it in her lung is also spread to her chest wall, and her ribs. She needed 5 ribs removed an they also scraped her chest wall. 4 days later Mom was home and in lots of pain, after numerous trips and stays to the hospital and her getting weaker they do her surgery on her stomach, only to find that chemo would have taken care of the tumor since it was so small. After the stomach surgery she went down hill fast and lost alot of weight. On June 20th Mom's 58th bithday, they released her from the hospital. We were all so happy to have her home, she on the other hand wasnt happy at all anymore, she always had a dark look in her eyes, like she had died inside. She then started getting the headaches. A few weeks later a ct scans shows a tumor has grown on her forntal lobe. It was unoperatable (like she could handle another operation anyways) so they gave her 10 rounds of radiation, chemo was out of the question she was already so thin and weak. After the radiation didnt work they sent her home an Hospice came in. Mom was bed bound even b4 coming out of the hospital. She held on for a few more months until November 3rd 2008. She fought an gave the cancer one h*ll of a black eye in those short 9 months.
I miss her so much, its so hard. I dont want November to come. Each day it gets closer the worse I get. It seems like im reliving it all over again. Does it ever get easier? Im only 24 years old and have a 9 yr old son an a 2 yr old daughter and a great husband that I need to be strong for but I cant.. It hurts sooo bad.