Oct 22, 2009 - 4:15 pm
I have recently been diagnosed with a Grade II Astrocytoma in my left temporal lobe. I have been very fortunate in the fact that I haven't had any major symptoms, my tumor was about the size of a small golf ball, I guess. My surgeon was able to remove about 50% and have recovered very well from the surgery. Only slight headaches and dizziness. I am scheduled to have stereotactic radiosurgery on November 19th.
I have read many of the discussions about chemo and other radiation treatments, and am curious now why my doctor has not mentioned anything about chemo. I am assuming because I have a Grade II.
I also feel guilty that I am not very optimistic right now. I am having trouble trying to focus on life and not the fact that I have a brain tumor, but sometimes I am sad and scared. I have two sons, 15 and 6, and hope that I will get to see my grandkids one day. I know that can happen, but the fact that I don't know if my tumor will become a higher grade (and when) is what bothers me. I wish that I could live each day like there is nothing in my head, except what is supposed to be there!
I know that God has a plan for me, but sometimes I wish I knew exactly what it was.