Oct 19, 2009 - 10:01 pm
People keep telling me that God won't allow me to follow my husband in death because there must be some "purpose" for me. I am also aware of the religious belief that suicide is an unforgivable sin. Well, I can't find a purpose for myself now. I feel like I'm just dying inside and I want to go and be with him. I beg God each and everyday to please take me too. I walk into rooms and don't even know why I'm there. For the past 7-8 months all I have done is care for my husband and now there's "nothing".