Oct 13, 2009 - 10:40 pm
Hi I'm new to the site and am looking for alot of support somewhere. My life has been flipped around this year after being diagnosed with cancer. I am only 15 years old. Its been really hard these past couple of months. At first i was strong about getting through this but now i've just been really depressed. All this really came in a shock. I was playing in a baseball game and got hit in the eye by the ball. Went to the ER had a CAT scan done and they found a tumor. I had an 11 and half hour surgery and the pathology came back malginant. Currently i'm going through chemotherapy and soon radiation. I feel as i've been the luckest person ever to find the tumor early before any sypmtoms devolped. But recently i've been really depressed. I tend to cry myself to sleep every night and my doctor has prescribed me sleeping pills cuz i havnt been getting any sleep at all. I just can't think of any ways to be strong. I can't go to my parents cuz it just makes them even more upset when i talk about it. And i try to block everything out with music but it just makes me cry even more. So please if anyone has any ways of dealing with this please reply.