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allison731

				          
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        			    October 3, 2009 - 6:49pm			  			

			
			
On July 18, my mom passed away. For two years my dear mother fought her toughest battle. Unfortunately, it just wasn't enough. 


She was a single mom with three kids of her own, including myself. It was just me and her in the house because the older two were off at college. I gave my life to her and cared for her as much I could, as much as a 15, 16 year old could do. For that alone, my heart breaks a little more everyday without her. I am so very lost without her. Although the loss of a parent is normal, I deserved a mom for more than sixteen years.


Not a day, minute, or second goes by where I don't think of her and her love. Being with her in her final moments is something that will never leave you. It does bring me comfort knowing she is no longer in pain. I just hope she is happy in heaven. All I want is for her to know I love her soooo much!


The things I miss the most are coming home to her from school, or calling home and hearing her answer, or just hugging and kissing her goodnight. 


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kitty44

				      
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October 7, 2009 - 10:47pm

			
I understand.......
			
I want to say how sorry I am for your loss.  Nothing will ever compare to the relationship of you and you Mom, that's the hardest thing for me to grasp! I can honestly say I know how you feel.  Although I am not 16 but 33 and I too lost my Mom in June 16 after battling cancer for almost 5 years!  I was with her a lot the past few months of her life. I too was there with her when she died. I will never forget that night for as long as I live. I felt such relief for her when I knew she was gone.....no more pain!!!  She had lived about 2 1/2 years longer than drs. expected her to. She was a fighter.  Really wasn't in "bad" pain until the last 7 months.  I talked to her everyday.  We live about 20 mins. apart so I didn't see her everyday but we always talked.  I'm a mother of two boys, 4 & 5.  It's really hard on them too. I miss her a lot because I can't share my stories of my boys with her like I use to.  I'm a teacher, like my Mom was, and just like you I would call her after school and we'd talk about school and now I don't have that! I still can't believe she is gone sometimes.  I miss her a lot!!!  I can honestly say that it is getting a little easier for me. I still think of her a 1,000 times a day and some days are more sad than other days but overall I think it's getting easier to not miss her soooooo much.  It'll be 4 months since she's been gone next week, feels like it was yesterday.  I don't really have a lot of comforting words to say other than I DO believe it will get easier!  Just keep thinking of those "happy" thoughts, not those final moments you know?  She is in NO MORE PAIN!!  


I know that you feel robbed that you're only 16 and don't have a Mom. I feel the same way and I'm 33! It's not fair! One thing I do know is that God is there when we feel alone, when we wish we had our moms, when we NEED our moms.....He's there.  He is taking care of us and He is listening.  I can't imagine being 16 and just losing my Mom, but I bet you are a strong young lady, you went through a lot caring for you Mom.  Find that strength again.  If ever you need to talk I am here.  I will say a prayer for you and hope that you find total peace in Him. (I know I'm still searching for it, it will take time.)



			
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