It has been a few months since I posted here. I broke my ankle in May, had surgery on it, and I can now run again which is important for me. My wife is on her third course of chemotherapy for stage 4 colon cancer with mets to liver and abdominal wall. She was diagnosed almost 2 years ago; it has been a journey for both of us.
The reason for my post is that yesterday at work, a co-worker screamed at me for a mistake I made on an excel spreadsheet. Normally this kind of thing I could shrug off fairly well – not yesterday. I lost it. Lost it meaning I was reduced to tears. I wanted to say “I was up all night with my wife after one of her decadron highs after chemotherapy and you are *****ing about a damn spreadsheet!?? I walked into another room and just cried. Lots of built-up pain and emotions. I don’t cry very much, certainly not in front of other people, feeling vulnerable is threatening to me, but it all just hit the fan yesterday.
People don’t have a clue what this is like unless they experience it.
Helps to share, thank you.