Cancer Survivors Network

to have any great wisdom to offer you, for I have not walked in your shoes.
I do, however, think you are wise to be involved in therapy, both for your own mental and emotional healing as well as that of your son. I am sure you know that he will follow your lead in dealing with this and many more issues in his future. You are setting a good example by letting him know that when we need help we ask for it. And even grown-ups need help sometimes.
I pray God's abundant blessings on your and your son's future.

I'm so sorry for you and your son's loss! Please know you are both in my prayers. I don't have the words to say, only that I know God, will give you comfort if you lean on him. My husband is fighting stage 4 esophageal cancer. We have 5 children, 5 grandchildren and 1 on the way. Our youngest 2 children are boys, age 17 and 15. It's truly a struggle everyday but we lean on our heavenly Father, through his son Jesus Christ, for hope and strenghth. May God bless you and your son for now and always.

am so so sorry and sympathise whole-heartedly. Just lost my husband, aged 45, here in Belgium about 2-3 weeks ago to rare aggressive lymphoma. Heartbroken and in total disbelief. "they" say it gets easier -hope it helps to know others understand. let me know how you and son doing. sending lots of understanding and sympathy across continents in the hope it lifts you a little....

I sympathize with what you are going through. I lost my husband 6 days ago, and even after 2 and a half years of fighting cancer, I feel like it went so fast I can hardly believe it. He was the love of my life, my best friend, and a huge presence in the lives of everyone who knew him. I feel so sad that my youngest, who turned 4 a week before my husband died, will never really know her dad, not the way the older two do (they are 13 and 18). I spend a lot of time just wandering around the house--there are a ton of things I could and should do, cleaning, phone calls, etc., but nothing makes much sense right now. I guess we are lucky to have little ones, because they need more immediate care than older kids, and we can't just crawl under the covers--we are forced to keep going. I'm sorry I don't have any real words of wisdom for you. I just wanted to say that you are not alone. God bless.
Betty

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So sorry for your loss. My husband is 30 (as am I) and in the final stages of colon cancer. It is unlikely that he will last more than another two weeks. He has battled for five years and just can't take much more. We have a 13 month old and another baby due in 7 weeks. It is horrific.

I am sorry for your loss and god bless you. I recently lost my husband oct 22, 2009, and i miss him more than i thought it was possible to miss somone. i can only tell you that doing one day at a time is how you have to do, your doing the right thing and therapy can help. i figure the next year is going to be the next hardest thing i have to get through,(the first being i lost my husband to cancer). I know that the past two weeks have been tough and i get told that time has a way of easing the pain, but you will alway know the pain, may god walk beside and give you many blessing in the future, you will get through this, because you have to, but know that you will meet again. take life a hour at a time and then one day at a time is all you can do.

I lost my husband 2 weeks ago after a 6 yr. battle with colon cancer. We had been married for 42 years so you know I'm no youngster. I can't even begin to imagine what it is like to lose a husband so young. Our children are grown with children of their own. My heart goes out to you. Even though I have lived more years than you, I don't have any words of wisdom. I, too, feel great sadness and loneliness. I am glad you are getting help. I hope you have a good support system also. That's what really helps me. Our sons are great. They were here with me during the last few days and call regularly. I also have a strong church family that checks on me. The hurt is there, though. The house is empty without him. I'm trying to take care of all the business of living now and learning to live with my new normal day by day. I hope coming to this board helps. It has helped me. Take care of yourself so you can take care of your son. Fay

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i was care giver just lost my mom to lynch sydrome colon cancer 2 weeks ago. i recently became a 5 yrs survivor of late stage 3 and 10 years a go was cagegiver to my brother to died of the same illness.
but my mom was never one to complain a child from the depression she took what life dished out and survived a happy 86yrs. but this i must share with you. when she was 40 she was pregnant with my youngest brother and a family of 13 . my dad died suddenly from heart attack at home and my little brother was born 3 months later and never met him. today he is 40.
and seems to be ok in this crazy world. but when you feel the weight of the world falling in on you just remeber that there is always someone somewhere out there who got through the tough times and later call it history.
i dont know if this helps but i wrote this quote into my moms eulogy

" he who learns must suffer, and even in ourdeepest sleep, pain that falls drop by drop upon the heart, and even in our own dispair, against our will, comes wisdom to us by the awesome grace of god."

aeschylus greek playwright said that long time ago.

i hope it helps you today.the deeper you suffer the wiser you become. my mom was one of the wisest people anyone ever met.and let me say that i recently have become a few drops wiser myself.