Aug 25, 2009 - 10:11 pm
I think that I'm deciding against a hospital stay and treatment-and I know what this means. This means, at the rate that my tumor is growing, that I will be very lucky to spend Christmas with my parents and family. I think this is what I'm going to do. I don't want them to put me through hell, and then not make it. But sometimes, I really want to FIGHT, but sometimes that is very scary because of the risks involved.
Is there anyone that has seen someone pass away from a brain tumor? I don't mean to be insensitive, but I am trying to make the most important decision of my life, and I'm wondering about the process-what my docs haven't told me.
I'm very scared. I know you all are dealing with things, I'm not the only one, so I appreciate you reading my post. I'm about to try fall asleep, so this is an exhausted post-my apologies. I feel terrified tonight.