Aug 22, 2009 - 12:42 pm
I am trying to guess how I will be as my remission gets 'less new'. It is so thrilling and strange to be out of treatment, and then to have my check-ups, and the next appointments set for NOVEMBER! I am almost giddy with the freedom of having my DAYS returned to me without the constant interruption of treatment appointments. I can't seem to settle back into my old routine. How about the rest of you that have finished your initial treatment protocol in the past year? Has life returned to normal or are you someone else that you were before?
I know that I should start to re-build my business that I left get smaller during my treatment. I let the registration deadline pass for an important trade show I've always been a part of,...and instead planned a trip that week to my aunt's with my sister and step-mother.
My formerly spotless house is, quite frankly, pretty dirty and certainly messy. Instead of cleaning, I go out and dig in the garden day after day over my lunch.
And that trip to Greece in October will take me away from the office 2 full weeks, and yet I don't plan to take my computer or hassle with international internet access. I've never been like this about my business!
My grandkids stopped in 2 days ago, and I took off with them to an amusement park for the entire business day. I skip half the work day almost every DAY to go out to lunch or breakfast with friends.
I was locking up the house to go to bed at close to midnight the other night (thinking my husband was already upstairs) and noticed the pool lights were on. I went out to investigate, and found my husband brooding in the pool with a glass of brandy. The old me would have either told him good-night and gone off to bed so I wouldn't be too tired the next day; or chastised him into coming in to go to sleep. The NEW me stripped off my clothes and dove into the pool bare-naked, totally reversing his dark mood!
Who is this 'Remission Linda'? And is this a passing phase and will I settle down soon? Or do the rest of you find yourselves living full-speed-ahead in a way unfamiliar to you?