Jul 20, 2009 - 12:03 am
Had a dull backache foever!!! Pee'd blood the night bfore they found kidney cancer on April 16, surgery May 5, removed left kidney and per surgeon, all of cancer (tumor 7.2 x 7.8 x 5). There was none outside capsule and scans then showed nothing anywhere else. I am now seeing an oncologist and in preparation for chemo (clinical trial EC2805) I had scans last week, and I have a spot on my lung.
Anyway, everything I have found, read or studied has a very grim outlook and for the past two weeks, I have been finding that is coloring my outlook on everything. My family thinks since the surgeon said "all clear" that everything is fine and there is no reason for me to be concerned, have "scanxiety" (I love that word) or even have the chemo.
I have no one I can talk to that is close to me, and everything so far online has been so negative, find this tonight was a God send.
I am 53 yrs old, I did smoke until July 28th of last year, I'm overweight and I worked in a rubber factory for 2 1/2 years about 15 years ago.
I guess I just wanted to find someone who has what I have, who has survived or who understands sitting there in that waiting room for the scan, feeling like the most alone person in the world.