Jun 18, 2009 - 11:29 pm
I have a fear of heights and when I receive radiation it is on a table high up. I know I am fine on the table, but my mind starts worrying about falling off if the table moves too fast or if the radiation machine malfunctions and hits me. I have been cooperating with the two technicians who do the radiation but when they leave the room after getting the table up high enough and in the right position. I am told to lie still while the radiation machine zaps me on four side of my pelvic. If I watch the machine move that gets me feeling worse so I close my eyes. I have started to get anxiety pills to get me to calm down and get through the sessions. I am in my second week and have at least three more weeks to go (that is if they don't decide that I don't need more). I was told at least five weeks of radiation and maybe more. I said to the doctor that I had a fear of falling off and he said you are safe on the table. I did get pills to take right before a session of radiation and I will see if they work.