Jun 16, 2009 - 10:23 pm
I'm a new member thanks to my best friend searching websites to help give me some support. In January 2009, I was diagnosed with tongue, lympth nodes in the neck and a place on my lung. It is called small cell squamous cell cancer stage 4. Needless to say, I am a nervous wreck. My entire life has changed and I hate it. I have taken 6 weeks of radiation everyday plus 2 extra days that I never thought I would get through. I am on my second session of chemo and have 12 more weeks of that. I have been reading a lot of the stories here and realize I'm not the only one living with this hell. I do have a feeding tube because I can barely swallow. I am 50 pounds lighter and somedays I just want to give up. I watched my grandfather in 1985 suffer with the same cancer that I have and I remember how hard it was watching him waste away to nothing. I never knew the pain he was in until experiencing it for myself. My hope is to get and give support to others on good and bad days. Thank you for listening.