Jun 05, 2009 - 4:37 am
I just received all the info about what my treatment will be and to say the least I'm very apprehensive as I will need the "dreaded mask" that I've read about and seen pictures of. My Dr. told me that one of my cancers alone would be bad enough but having both at once is very serious. I have squamous cell larynx and non small cell adenocarcinoma of the left lung. I posted on the lung cancer board after I was first diagnosed and received so many letters of encouragement and advice that I was hoping some of you who are more experienced can help me again. So many of you have been through so much more than what I will probably be experiencing so I feel like a wimp but today is just not one of my better days. Trying very hard to be optimistic and upbeat and have done rather well at it, my husband, family and I are the type that generally deal with things with humor and are still able to make some "sick" jokes about this, it's just our way with coping.
I will be receiving cistplatin (sp?) for 2 consecutive days in 3 week cycles and radiation 5 days a week for 6 weeks with the possibility of more chemo after the radiation is stopped. I still have a lot to be done before this starts, brain MRI, inserting a g-tube, CT scan, meet with a dietician and training for the g-tube. It's all so overwhelming that I kept asking myself - can I really do all of this?? I know in my heart that I can do it as I have a great support group in my husband, daughter and 2 sisters who will be there with me through all of this. It just breaks my heart to think about what I am putting my family through as I am quickly learning that I am not the only one who is going to be affected by this horrible disease. It's silly but I think my biggest "fear" is the mask, I've already told the doctor to make sure there is plenty of adavan as they are giving it to me just so I can make it through the MRI. I'm not too crazy about the thoughts of a g-tube either but the doctor is quite concerned about my not losing anymore weight and my nutrition, unfortunately I'm already a small person who can not afford to lose any weight - first time in my life I wish I were overweight :)
Thank you for reading this, sometimes just putting my thoughts into writing helps calm my nerves.
Good luck to everyone and may God bless us all.