May 22, 2009 - 4:31 pm
Although I do not believe in a divinity, during my 5 weeks of radiation, during treatments, I thought of Michelangelo's Creation of Adam and visualized God's finger zapping away my cancerous tumor.
Recuperating from my surgery and struggling with a temporary colostomy bag, I was very depressed, had difficulty adjusting to the bag and had numerous accidents. My bedroom overlooks a small wood and in Jan. 2005 a very wet snow fell, clinging to the trees in the late afternoon. The snowflakes were large, wet and soggy. An ostomy nurse was visiting me and remarked how pretty and peaceful the scene was. I was lying in bed, and we both just stared out the window, watching the snow fall. It was peaceful, and my fears, unhappiness and depression started to melt away. She reminded me how lucky I was to have such a great view and suggested I think back on that moment and remember the peaceful scene and calmness of the moment. Every now and then, when needed, I close my eyes and think back to that afternoon and picture the snow falling and the pretty scene, and find I am able to relax, calm down and find a few moments of peace.