May 07, 2009 - 7:09 pm
I've spent the last two days physically feeling fine for the first time in four months unable to sleep or eat because I'm so freaked out about my imminent fate. I'm obsessed, I just can't seem to accept my situation. I've been searching for something positive which will give me hope that my life will go on beyond next year. So far I just can't find anything that can reassure me things will be like ok all my friends and family keep telling me. Does anyone out here know what I'm talking about? Can anyone put this into a perspective which will make it ok for me? I realize I'm probably wasting the best remaining days of my life worrying about something I can't control.