Apr 30, 2009 - 9:56 pm
I am new to this sort of thing. I guess I am just reaching out. There has to be someone else out there like me. My sister has cancer. She is just getting prepped for chemo. A portacath?? The lingo is all so new for me I am not sure if I have it right or not. My sister is 1,000 miles away. I was there after her sugery and being there helped me becuase it is so hard for her to commnicate her situation I was right there and knew what was going on. She doesn't like to talk so you can't just call her, you can but she probably won't answer. So I e-mail her. Some days she e-mails a lot sometimes not much.Most of the time I try and talk about things other then the cancer. But, sometimes that is hard for me because I need to know what is happening. I don't want her to think that I am avoiding her cancer. I try to let her take the lead in the e-mails but I usually get 1 sentance from her to work with.Our mom lives in the same town that I do. This is hard too. More for mom who said to me today "You can't imagen what it's like to have your child going through this." What do I say to that? No I can't imagen. Nor can I imagen what my sister is going through. How do I pull this all together and be there for my mom, my dad, my sister, her husband, her kids. I don't know how to do it cause I can't imagen! I don't know what to do. I'm the baby of the family! I feel so selfish writing about how hard it is for me. I just want some help to do the right things, say the right things and be the sister that my sister needs even though I am 1,000 miles away. I want to be the daughter my parents need that is just blocks away. Someone help me please.