Apr 15, 2009 - 7:36 pm
I am new here. My husband was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer on May 1, 2007. We have had many ups and downs along the way, but I have to admit that things are taking their toll on me now. He has become so weak now, but he's an artist and he has his work to keep him going. Sometimes I feel resentful that I am so stressed-out, sleep-deprived and overwhelmed that I have nothing to balance out my days on the positive side. I do have three wonderful children, and I'm so grateful for them every day, but with a 17 year old, a 13 year old, and a 3 year old, things can get pretty insane. My husband's parents also live with us, in an in-law apartment. They are both in their nineties, both legally blind, and my father-in-law has alzheimers (no, I am not making this up). I am not one to whine or feel sorry for myself, but I really feel it getting to me now. Sometimes I'm afraid I won't be able to take care of everyone and do everything I am responsible for. I saw my father die of cancer when I was 12 years old, so I know what cancer is, and I'm so proud of my husband and inspired by his strength. Does anyone else ever feel ashamed when they get overwhelmed by the whole situation?