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alley22
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Joined: Apr 2009

HEY DA NAME IS ALLEY AND IVE BEEN WITH MY GIRLFRIEND FOR 11 MONTHS SHE IS THE FIRST RELATION SHIP THAT I HAVE BEEN IN.I LOST MY MOM TO BRAIN CANCER ON 9/2/08 AND IM STILL CRYING DAILY ABOUT THE LOST.I WAS THERE WITH MY MOM WHEN SHE GOT SICK SO I KNOW ABOUT THE STAGES THAT ONE GO THROUGH BECOUSE I WENT THROUGH THEM.MY GIRLFRIEND WAS ONE OF MANY VICTIMS OF 9/11 SHE GOES FOR TREATMENT EVERY MONTH IVE BEEN THER WITH HER AND IT BREAKS MY HEART TO SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE SICK BECOUSE OF 9/11.MY GIRLFRIEND TOLD ME THAT THE DOCTORS SAID THAT SHE HAD A LUMP IN HER BREAST AFTER SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE REALLY NEVER SAID ANYMORE ABOUT IT I WOULD ALWAYS SAY BABY WHATS GOING ON WHAT DID THE DOCTOR SAY AND SHE WOULD SAY THE RESULTS DID NOT COME BACK YET.NOW YESTERDAY I ASK HER THE SAME QUESTION AGAIN AND SHE SAID WELL THEY HAVE TO CUT TISSUE OFF MY LUNG AND DO MORE TEST I THINK SHE IS HIDING SOMETHING FROM ME I CAN FEEL IT BUT WHY WOULD SHE DO THAT I DONT KNOW,SHE SAID SHE IS NOT GONNA LET THEM DO THE TEST I AGREE WITH HER BECOUSE I DONT WANT THEM TO CUT ANYTHING. IS THERE ANOTHER WAY OTHER THAN CUTTING?SHE COUGH ALOT AND SHE SAY ITS JUST A COLD I KNOW SHE IS HIDING SOMETHING WHAT SHOULD I DO I DONT PUSH HER TO TALK ABOUT IT BECOUSE IT HURTS ME WHEN WE TALK ABOUT IT. SHE IS ALSO STARTING TO CHANGE, SHE IS VERY EASY TO GET UPSET I DONT KNOW MAYBE IM JUST THINKING TO HARD BUT IM JUST SCARED I LOVE HER AND I WANT HER TO BE O.K

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marywest
Posts: 135
Joined: Sep 2009

I just saw your post, how is your mom? How are you?

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katmarie
Posts: 1
Joined: Nov 2009

Dear Alley, So sorry about the lose of your mother, its really hard to deal with. My mother has been gone for 25 years to bone cancer, I still think of her every day. But please dont give up, your mom would not want you crying for her everyday. Think about the good times and the things that make you smile, not the cancer. And i also feel for what your going through with your partner, just be there for her, someone she can lean on. And keep looking for resourses that can help... Take Care

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JoanieP
Posts: 573
Joined: Mar 2010

Chemo will change her emotionally while she is going through it. Call on a strength much bigger than we all are. That's what I do and it has helped unbelievably

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JoanieP
Posts: 573
Joined: Mar 2010

I don't understand why there needs to be a catagory for gay and lesbians. I am straight but we are all people and cancer effects us all. We are all God's children.

lucky 2
Posts: 1
Joined: Mar 2010

It makes me sad that lesbians and gays still feel so segregated from our communities. Having many lesbian friends, I can understand the need for them to connect with someone who will not judge. Perhaps one day in the future, this will no longer be the case.
cindy

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