Mar 30, 2009 - 10:37 am
I have been read the posts relating to MR_Sad, and while I understand where everybody is coming from I cant seem to get past this dispair. I suppose it is about 6 weeks since my wife Angela died from ovarian Cancer and at the begining I was OK, relieved that see was no longer in pain. Nnow I just feel total desolation and dispair. Why did she go so quickely, I am angery with myself for not having spend more time with her during her fight, I was the only caregiver, bit now I wish I had spent every second of every day that she was ill rather than taking the dogs out for a walks or sitting down stairs while she was lying upstairs, I have all the time in the world now to do that. Some days I am fine, or part of the day but then I just feel totally lost and the hurt in the pit of my stomach just will not get less. All I can think of is I just want her back, I am all alone in our house, dont have any kids and the only thing keeping me from loosing it are our dogs. We were only 35, 3 years married, together for 7 and now I have to start all over again and dont know if I want to, I just dont know what to do with my life anymore. Angela was my wife but my best friend too and I miss her too much.