Mar 29, 2009 - 5:10 am
I have read several blogs on this subject, some feel slighted to have had to deal with cancer and its long lasting side effects, some just pick up the pieces and continue on, others find a cause and attack it with a vengeance. Me I am somewhere in the middle. I have long term forever lasting side effects from my cancer occurrences, I consider them sort of like a war vet may consider a missing appendage or a scar born in battle. My missing breast (why would I keep it anyway it was trying to kill me) the lymph damage to my left arm and the nerve damage to the left hand and of course the gnawing knowledge that it can return for round 4 any time it feels like it. All these things have altered me and none would have happened without the cancer, however that does not mean I am less than I ever was. I am still RE, I still have family and friends who love me and I still have much to offer this world....cancer did not change any of that. I choose to continue living as good a life as I can for whatever time I have here. I have two young grandsons and a grand daughter on the way that I have much yet to teach, I also have two children who though they are adults they still need me. Of course there is my husband who seems to like having me around so I will do all I can to keep it that way. Bottom line is cancer has taken so much from me I cannot allow it to take my happiness, it is just not an option!