Mar 28, 2009 - 1:08 am
I'm starting to find it so hard to deal with him sometimes. I love him and I want to be with him for as much time as he has left, but sometimes I feel so trapped. I'm still young and I want to do the things with him that I would do with any other guy my age. Instead I work, study, and go home at night hoping he will be in a good mood. I know he's tired, I know he doesn't feel well. I know he feels inadequate because he can't do the things I want to do with him.
For once I want to be the one that's strong. I want to be strong for him, but I'm starting to feel like a maid or a nurse more than a lover. He was sick before I even came along, so I knew it would be hard, but I didn't know what I was getting myself into. I don't want to run away but sometimes I feel like I'm at a dead end.