Feb 16, 2009 - 1:11 pm
Not going to go into the whys of why I am so overwhelmed YET AGAIN, most of you have read my woes of a lodged kidney stone they want to drag out and other medical surgeries and procedures they are threatening to do. One of the confusing aspects of my situation is that because I have had too much medical intervention in my 20 years since diagnosis and so because of that I have become a super Wuss, unable to do even dentistry without being knocked out. Now that there are several procedures I can't keep getting knocked out for each of them so how to choose? I don't know how it happened but it has just all piled up at once. Now on top of each one of these prospective assaults I am dealing with being overwhelmed as well - which as most of you know is an assault all of its own. I am frozen. Can't seem to make one decision that sits right before second guessing myself. Cancelled another specialist's appointment this morning because of heart arythmias I was having but was relieved to not have to start yet something else surgical - which it could well have been. One thing after another and none go away completely, traces are left - large and small of each and everyone along the way. I know you all know, all too well, what I am talking about. Luckily none of mine, thus far, are life threatening situations but the overwhelming nature of it all is just getting to me. Hugs. Blueroses.